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Nick Carter Fan Fiction: Forbidden Love 45

Chapter 45
**Mary's view**
I told dad how everything happened. He seem to be very sad and pissed off. Well of course cause she was his kids mother. My mother. I never forgot that day. Now I keep good care of my dad. Nothing won't happened to him when I'm around. Dad showed me picture of my brother. “Oh my god dad. He looks so much about you. And he looks older than me.” I looked to my dad. “Well he is older than you. It's a long story sweety.” He smiled. “Are you saying that I got big brother from the past?” I was confused. “Like I said. Long story.” He put picture to his wallet and smiled. “I got time.” I looked at my dad and was exciting. He laughed and hug me and put me to his arms. “I don't sweety. I should be at work by now.” Work? I looked up to my dad and was confused. “Work? You have work?” I asked and he takes something out of his pocket and he gives badge for me. “I'm a cop. You should be proud of your father now.” I looked at badge and start to think. “But dad... This is not you. I remember my dad perfectly. He wasn't a cop.” I looked at my dad. He stood up and smile. “Oh sweetheart. I have better life now and I'm proud of you that you had found guy like Nick. He's nice. Nicer than your fiancé.” I sighed and give badge to dad. “Dad... please...” “Just listen to me. You deserve much better than him. You should be with Nick. He said how he treats and said bad thing for you. Like piece of shit.” Dad now raise his voice for bit. “Dad! You listen!” I snapped at my dad and then I hear Mike to cry. “Damn it... Give me second.” I said and walked to cradle and lift Mike to my arms. “Hey there sweet pie. I'm here.” I looked to my dad. “Dad... This is your grandson Mike. Wanna hold him?” He nods smiling and walks to closer. I give Mike to my dad and smiles. “This is your grandpa, Mike.” Dad takes Mike to his arms and smiles to Mike. “Hey little guy. You look so handsome.” I smiled and took picture of them with my phone. “Awww... Dad. That's so nice.” Dad looks at to me and smiles. “I'm serious about that you should be with Nick. Just get divorce.” I Smiled to my dad. “Dad... Let me talk, okay?” He nods and smiles. “Good cause... Nick and I are back together.” I smiled to dad. “Back? You had been with him before?” He asked confused. “Well yeah... Nick and I had break up 2-3 times. We have our up and downs. But I really love him dad even thought Nick doesn't wanna get married.” I took mike back to my arms and gently sing for him to get back to sleep. “Nick doesn't what?” Dad asked and was little choked. “Oh come on dad. Marriage doesn't solve anything. Only matter is that we love each other.” He start to shake his head. “No, no... I want my little girl to get married. I want to hear this from Nick.” He then walked to door and open it. “Nick. Come here for minute.” Then both walk inside and Nick looks at me smiling. “Is everything okay?” Nick asked and was very confused. “My daughter just told me...” I didn't let dad finished. “Just stop dad. Why can't you just believe what I told you?” Both looks at me and dad says. “I just wanna hear it from him.” Nick looks at my dad and is now even more confused. “Hear about what? Is this about Bridie?” Nick asked and then my dad looked at me. “Who's Bridie?” Oh boy... Yeah I forgot mention about Bridie to dad. Nick looks at me. “I'm lost. Could one of you tell me why I am here?” I put Mike back to cradle. “Dad... You should sit down.” I told him and he shake his head. “I'm fine... Who's Bridie?” he asked and I looked to Nick. “Bridie is our daughter. Your granddaughter, sir.” Nick said and looked dad and then to me. Dad now looked at to me. “You have daughter? How old is she? Must be 2 at least.” I looked at to Nick and sighed. “Actually... She's 4 years old. Mary was 15 when she birth.” Nick said. Dad was now very angry. “WHAT?!” he looks at me and is very pissed. “Dad don't... I love her so much. Don't make big number of this.” “Why not? You were still child to have her! Why you did it?” Nick lead his back against to wall and looks at me. “I would like to know that too. She lied about her age. I thought she was 23.” Dad looks at to Nick and is choked. “And you just decide to make her pregnant?” he asked and moved closer to Nick. “No, sir. I didn't even know I have daughter until 4 days ago. She never called me and told about her. All are her fault.” I was screwed. Dad hated about lying. I sat down to rocking chair and bite my fingernails. I notice dad was looking at to me even I wasn't seeing it. “You never told Nick that he have a daughter? You never called him to tell about it?” he asked and I just couldn't answer. I was so fucked up. “Just answer to him, Mary. He deserve to know the truth.” Nick said. God I hate that Nick was all the time right. “Truth huh?” I looked up to both.
“I tell you both a truth! Yes everything is my fault! It's my fault Nick and I break-up in the first place cause Nick doesn't wanna get married! And I promise to myself that I never call him! So I kept that promise until Hannah send me invitation to a wedding! So here I am at a hospital with 2 people who don't understand how bad it hurts that You dad start to drinking when Mama died! And Nick... Every girl want to get married! Now I don't really care any fuck! This is so bullshit! You both are bullshit! No both of you get out!”
Wow... That was longest line I ever said. But they deserve to hear the truth now. Both looked at each other and were speechless. “You were talking about that I don't wanna get married?” Nick asked and looked at to me. “Is it true, Nick? You don't wanna get married?” My dad asked and looked very choked. “Please talk outside.” I begged. “No... This is about you too, Mary. Your dad need to hear this. And so does you.” Nick said and looked at to me. “Okay. I'm listening.” I said and sat down on bed. Nick took deep breath and start to talk. “Okay. Here's the thing. I was 23 years back then when I said I don't wanna get married. Now that I'm 29 I can't stop thinking of married. Your sister was right, Mary. If you could wait view years we might be married by now. I loved you so much and you mess up it.” What? Me? He wasn't serious. I looked at to Nick. “Me? That's so bullshit. I loved you too and you left me to my room cause I wanted to get married.” I snapped at him. “See... That's your daughter Mr. Pieling. Always saying that it's someone else fault.” Nick said and pointed at me. “Sweety.” My dad said and looked at me. “What?” I asked and looked at him. “Nick already told you that he wasn't ready to get married when he was 23. And you were what? 14?” he asked and started to count. “Well maybe I was little overreacting.” I said and looked both of them. “Little? Babe... You take it too serious.” Nick said. “You two give me a headache. Please go!” I said and walked next to window to look out.
I heard door to shut down. I took deep breath and start to cry.
**Nick’s View**
I walked outside with Ronald. He offered me a coffee and I couldn’t say no. We walked to cafeteria and sat down to talk. “So I have granddaughter Bridie. Tell me about her.” Ronald said and drunk his coffee. “What should I say? I had known her only 3 or 4 days.” I said and drunk my coffee for bit. “Do you have a picture of her?” He asked and I took my cell phone and showed a picture. “That’s Bridie.” I said and smiled. Ronald looks at the picture and smiles. “She’s so beautiful. She looks so much about Mary when she was little.” Ronald said and laughed. “Really? I haven’t see any picture of her when she was little girl. Do you have picture with you?” I asked and smiled. Ronald gave my cell back and took his wallet. “I got it here somewhere. Oh here it is.” He said and give me a picture where was Mary with her sister Hannah. “Oh no… What they are doing in this picture? Water war?” I asked laughing. “Yeah… They shoot water on me after I took a picture.” He said and we both to start to laugh. Ronald was great man. I never thought I would get along with him. He is getting a better man. I can feel it. What Mary has told me about him it’s not that guy any more. “You can keep it if you want.” Ronald said and smiled. “No. It’s yours. I got many picture of Mary at my house.” I said and give it back to him. “Thank you. You are good man, Nick. I so hope you and Mary get married someday.” Ronald said and smiled. “Me too, Ronald. Me too.” I said smiling. We drunk our coffees and then Ronald needed to go back to work. We said goodbyes and then he left. I sat down back to my seat and then I heard whispering behind me. I looked my behind me and saw 4 girls smiling and looking at me. “Yes I’m Nick Carter from the Backstreet Boys. What you girls want?” I asked and smiled. They walked closer me and this 1 girl start to talk. “Just picture with you and autograph.” I stood up and smiled to girl. “Sure. Did you girls follow me to hospital or something?” I asked and give them autographs. “No… My sister is here. She was in car accident. Her name is Lisa. She’s so crazy about you. Would you come to see her and say hi?” girl said again. I looked at to girl and smiled. “Yeah. I got time.” I said and took my stuff and walked with my fans to Lisa’s room. I didn’t have even bodyguard with me. This was crazy. Where was Q anyway?
4 girls walked inside the room and there was laying down on bed in bad shape this brown hair girl. “Lisa. Here’s someone who want to say hi to you.” same girl who talked earlier say to Lisa. I walked closer to Lisa and smiled. “Lisa? Hi… It’s Nick. Your friends here asked me to come to see you. How are you feeling?” I asked and smiled. Lisa opened her eyes for bit open and smiled for bit and I just couldn’t stop smiling too. “Nick… This is dream isn’t it?” She asked very quietly. “No… I’m here. Feel this?” I asked and touch her hand. Oh she started to cry. I guess cause of happiness to see me. “Yes I can feel that.” She whispered. “Just hang in there. Are you in pain?” I asked and looked at her. “Not anymore, but earlier I was. Nurse gave me some medicine to feel better.” I looked at to other girls. “How long she’s going to be here?” I asked. “Doctor said that 3 weeks. She can’t walk anymore.” other girl said. “What? That’s so terrible. Sorry to hear that.” I said and looked back to Lisa. “Lisa? Be strong. You will walk someday again. I’ll pray with other guys.” I said and touched Lisa’s hand. “So nice of you, Nick. Thank you.” She said quietly. “Sorry girls, but I need to go now.” I said to girls and smiled. “May I ask you a question?” this little girl asked. She was about 10 years old. I smiled to her and nodded. “Yeah sweetheart. What you want to ask?” I asked. “What are you doing in hospital? Is someone hurt?” she asked. I looked at other girls and I didn’t know what to say. “Well girls… My girlfriend just labor her baby so… She’s here cause of baby.” I said and I just couldn’t believe I said that to them. “You are father?” 4th girl suddenly asked. “No. He’s not mine. Sorry girls, but I really can’t talk about this. Take care, Lisa. Was nice to meet you.” I said and walked outside. I closed the door and sighed. “I so hope that won’t go to press tomorrow morning.” I said out loud and walked to Mary’s room. I saw her sitting still next to window looking outside. “Is it raining?” I asked and looked outside. “Yes. What are you doing here, Nick? I don’t wanna see anyone.” Mary said and looked at me. “Just want you to know that your dad left back to work. He might wanna come to see you later if you want.” I said and walked closer to her. “Fine by me.” She stood up and looked at me. “How’s Mike doing?” I asked and smiled. Mary looked at to cradle. “I guess he’s sleeping.” I looked at to cradle to see Mike and there he was. Sleeping. I smiled and looked at him “He’s so amazing. Even he’s not my son, I’m gonna be there for him. I can help him to walk and talk.” I said exciting. “You don’t have to.” Mary said and sighed. “I want to. Let me do it.” I begged. She looked up to me and smiled. “Okay. If you really want.” I put her to hug and smiled. “I won’t let you down, babe.” I said and kissed her cheek. “You better not.” Mary said and laughed. I looked down on her and smiled. “ I promise you. I had change. You have to trust me. I never ever let you go again. And yes. I will marry you.” I said and smiled. “I didn’t even propose you.” Mary said and looked at me odd look on her face. “Yeah I know… After your dad showed a picture of you and your sister Hannah playing water war, I decided to marry you.” Mary looks at me. “Wait what? Picture of me and Hannah?” Mary asked. I only nodded and smiled. “Dad still have that? I thought he throw it away.” Mary said and sat down on her bed and sighed deep. I sat next to her and put her to my arms. “You looked very cute. You were naked” I said and laughed. “Hey. I was kid that day. Don’t make funny of me.” She said and hit me to my stomach. I only laughed. “Sorry. I won’t. But it was very cute picture. Your dad wanted to give it to me but I said no.” I said and smiled. “Did I ever told you how my mom died?” She suddenly asked. I started to think of. “I don’t remember. Wanna tell me?” I asked and looked at her. “Yeah. I had think of her a lot lately. I told dad about it and he couldn’t hear what I was saying. Mom was his first love.” She said and sighed again deeply. “You don’t have to tell me.” I said and looked at her. “I want to. It’s killing me if I can’t tell you about it.” she said and put her head to my shoulder. I hold her in my arms and give kiss to her head. “Okay. You tell me then. I’m listening.” I said and so she started to tell me how everything began with this Joshua. Mari’s mom Tara engaged with this Joshua. Only Mary knew what kind of asshole he was. I feel so sorry for her and her sister Hannah. Joshua was raping Mary!? What?! “What? He raped you many times?” I asked and she stood up off the bed. “I’m sorry. Please continue.” I said but she couldn’t continue. She was in pain to think of it. I walked to her and put her to hug. “I’m right here. He can’t hurt you anymore. He’s gone.” I repeat to her because she told me that he killed her mom Tara and himself by jumping on the roof. Why someone can be so terrible to do something like that? I’m so glad he didn’t kill my love and Hannah. We weren’t here right now if he would do it. I thank you God for not let her go away. Mary looked very tired so I helped her to bed to sleep. I sat myself to chair and be was awake whole night. Mike view times cried but Mary didn’t hear. She was so in sleep. I looked after Mike too that night. Oh I was gonna love this boy even it wasn’t mine. We were going to be a family. And I was going to marry Mary soon. I hope so.

Nick Carter Fan Fiction: Forbidden Love 44

Chapter 44

**Nick's view.*

I open my eyes and I was little confused what happened. I heard soft voice singing near by and I looked around and I saw Mary near by window singing to someone. “Hey. Who are you singing?” I asked and then she asked to be quiet. She smiled to me and walked to near me. “How's your head, fainter?” she asked and talked very low voice. “Pains like hell. What happened?” I asked and stood up to sit. And then I saw this cute little baby on her arms sleeping. “Oh my god, he's cute. We need to make these more.” I whispered to her and smile at her. She smiled and start to walk again around the room. “Maybe some day. I need some break to do these.” She sat down to rocking chair and hold him on her arms like never wanted to let him go. “Where's everyone?” I wondered and stood up of the bed. She looked up to me and swing on rocking chair. “Home sleeping. It's 2am.” I looked at to my watch and then to Mary. “How long I've been unconscious?” She looked at me with her smile. She was so beautiful. I love her smiling like that. “12 hours.” 12 hours?! Oh my god! That's almost like whole day! “12 hours? I've been unconscious 12 hours?” I asked shocked. Mary laughed low and swing on rocking chair. She looked at me. “Oh I like to do that. No you weren't unconscious 12 hours. You were unconscious 8 hours. You faint when Mike birth. You shouldn't look.” I love her laugh. I smiled and walked near by the chair and looked down to Mike. “Oh he's so small. He looked bigger when he come out of you.” Mary laughed and looked at me. “Oh stopped. You are so mean.” I lean down and give kiss to her. “You know I like to tease you.” I smiled to her. We laughed until someone walked in the room. We both watched to door and Jesse was standing there. “I told you to stay away from her.” He pointed at me and walks very pissed off to me. I lift my hands up and looks at him. “I didn't do anything. I guess leave you two alone then.” I was about to move to door, but Jesse craps on my shirt and throw me out of the room. “Stay out!” And he shut the door. What was this guys problem? He need to go talk to psychiatrist. I peek from the window inside to see them. Jesse was yelling at her. “You stupid shit! I was gonna forgive you, but now I see you on his arms! I had enough Mary!” Mary looked very scared and was putting Mike on the cradle. He was crying, but in danger if Jesse put his hands on her or hit her. I just needed to see it. “Just stop it! You were the one who said we should not going married! I did love you, Mac!” Mac? Is that his nickname? “Don't start that bullshit. I saw how you kissed him! You don't deserve him! He don't wanna get married!” Jesse was pointing to this direction and was looking too. He saw me looking in the room. He walked to window and shut the curtain down. “Go to hell Carter!” Yes.. he was an asshole. “Don't yell at him! This all is your fault, Mac! I went back together with him cause he really loves me! Marriage is not answer to everything!” I heard Mary yelling. Why she said that? She want to go married. What change her mind about that? 

I thought for moment and then I felt someone hand on my shoulder. I scared hell out of it and looked who was it. It was very old looking guy. I looked a man for moment and I saw something familiar about him. “yes? How can I help you sir?” He was about to say something but Mary start to scream loud. “I'm that screamers father. Ronald. Nice to meet you.” He offer his hand and I shake it. “I'm Nick. Mary's friend. I think so.” I smiled to Mary's dad. I never had meet him. He seem to be very nice. “Who is she fighting with?” He looked very worried. “Her fiancé. I think so.” Ronald looks at me odd look on his face. “You think so about many things. What is going on?” I looked at to him and was about to open my mouth but someone comes out of the room and I turn to see who. Jesse came out of the room very pissed. He walks to me and hits me on my face. “If I ever again see you touch her I kill you, Carter!” I lay against to wall and looked at to Jesse. “Wow guys... No fighting please. Are you Mari's fiancé?” Ronald point to Jesse. “Yes I am and who are you? Her grandpa?” Yes I can see Ronald don't like Jesse either. I was gonna like this man. “No. I'm her father, you jerk. And if you touch him ever again like that.” He was pointing at me. He was protecting me. “I'm gonna kick your butt.” Jesse started to laugh. “You? Gonna kick my butt? Oh I would love to see that someday.” I was just watching them without movement. 

Ronald Pieling

Suddenly Ronald hit Jesse very hard to nose. “Don't mess up with a cop.” He takes something out of his pocket and he got badge. He's a cop? Oh this is getting interesting. I could only smile to Jesse and I sat down to chair. “A cop? I didn't know sir. I'm very sorry.” Jesse was now begging some mercy. “If you hurt my daughter, I'm gonna kill you.” Was it now right time to say that he called her as awful names? “Excuse me Ronald. Can I talk to you for second?” I looked at to Ronald and stood up. “Sure.” he said and we walked aside. “I think you should be careful with him. He yelled to Mary today a lot. He called her even stupid shit and all other stuff. By the way. Does she knows you are here?” I asked suddenly. “No. I haven't seen her in 8 years. I moved to USA about 6 years ago and get job from here and get married. I got son name Aaron.” Wait what? My brother Aaron? I'm confused. “I got brother name as Aaron too. Hopefully we are not talking about same Aaron.” I looked choked. Ronald laughed and looked at me. “No... His last name is Pieling. Not Carter. That's your last name right?” I smiled and nod. “Yes. And first name is Nick.” I introduce myself to Ronald. “Wait... Are you the Nick Carter?” I smiled and laughed for bit. “Depends on what you mean by the?” “Backstreet boy.” he said and smiled. “Oh yeah... yes I am.” He knew who I was? “Yes... Somehow you looked familiar.” What? I was familiar to him. “How that can be? I never had meet you?” “Yes about that. I had seen some picture of her where she was sitting on her room and there some poster of Backstreet Boys. I guess I recognize you from that.” We both smiled to each other. “Wanna go to see her?” I asked and pointed to room. Ronald nods only and looks very unsure. I walked inside the door and saw her laying down on bed watching TV. “Hey. I got surprise for you.” I smiled to her and she didn't respond. She was only changing channels. Ronald walks to room and looks at her daughter. “Hey Mary.” He said nice and soft voice. Mary looks at her father and is surprised. “Daddy?” “Hey sweety. You look good.” Ronald smiled to his own daughter and I was smiling too. Mary stand up of the bed and walks to his father and hugs him tightly. “Hey. Good to see you.” I left quietly out the room and shut the door behind me. “You must be so happy now.” I looked at to Jesse who was talking to me. “Just shut up, Mac.” I sat other side to hallway to chair.

**Mary's view**

I couldn't believe it my dad was hear. We talked and he said he's married and I have a brother name Aaron. It's been 8 years when I saw him last time. He looks so old and better shape. I remember many things about him when I was little girl.

Mary as Young

“Higher daddy! Higher!” I was on swing and it was my 5^th birthday. I didn't have many friend back that day. I didn't know Tina, Nina, Anna, Sidney and Heidi back then. I lived different country back then. Hannah was 7 years old. Mom and dad had a bad fight that day when I was turn into 5 years old. Mom couldn't stand dad's drinking problem.

We weren't happy family. Daddy was drinking a lot alcohol and came home late as drunk. Mom couldn't handle it any more. I was 7 years old when they get divorce and sister was 9 years old. She said that some day we are going to be happy. And we are going to be happy family again. But that never happened.

My life get even worse when mom get engaged to this 1 guy. His name was Joshua. I was 12 years old. I already understood what is sex. One night it was only me and Joshua home alone. And of course our dog Toby who have some issues problems. He was just like Joshua except he was a dog. I was just in my room doing homework when I heard some steps behind me. I turn around and saw Joshua standing there looking at me. “Now we are alone. I have something special for you that your mother can't offer for me.” I stand back and he was only walking closer and closer. I was 12 and he raped me that night! I still remember how much pain I was. I cried my eyes red and my throat hurt. When he was finished he slap me and hit me. “Just to remind you who is boss in the house! If you tell someone about this, you and your mom and sister are dead!” I was very scared that night. 

I even member that, I was not going to school in 2 weeks. Then my teacher came to our home and talked to my mom and asked that is everything okay. Mom was very surprised herself that I wasn't at school. Then Joshua came from the work and recognize mom talking with my teacher. “Mr. Lane. I'm Mary's teacher. She hasn't been at school in 2 weeks. Do you have any idea why?” I heard them talking in the living-room. “No I don't. I really don't know. I just thought one day that she's sick cause she throw up.” Yes I was throwing up at mornings.” Why you didn't tell me she was throwing up?” My mom asked very worried. “I thought you knew. But hey. Don't worry teacher. She's coming school tomorrow. We gonna take care of that.” No way I wasn't let him to do that and I couldn't just listening in my room and let him to raping me again. I walked out of my room and shout lout as hard as I can. “YOU IDIOT! YOU TELL THEM THE TRUTH!” Teacher and mother put their looks on to Joshua. “You wanna tell us something, Mr. Lane?” Joshua looks at me very pissed off look on his face. “I don't know what she's talking about. Go to your room, Mary. Now!” I was just standing there. I was going to be strong about one. “No. You can't make me.” I said to him and then he had enough. He walks to me and slap me hard on my face and kicks me to my room. “Joshua! Stopped! You are hurting her!” I heard my mom shouting. “You stay out of this bitch! This is just me and Mary bisness!” Joshua shouted. 

Joshua Lane

“Mr. Lane! She's only a child! You can't treat her like that. I call a cops.” Joshua pull his gun on his pants and pointed it to teacher. “Don't do it, Mr. Kannigan. Put it down or I'll shoot her.” He pointed gun to my mom now. “Stop! Leave her alone!” I cried and shouted to Joshua. “Shut up you, whore! You are next!” He was looking at me to my room from my door. I was on my back on the floor. I couldn't move cause he kicked me hard on my stomach and face. Suddenly teacher attack him and tried to take gun on his hands. “Run, Mary!” Teacher was looking at me and I only shake my head. “I can't. I'm hurt.” Mom run to my room and help me to get up. “Come on sweety. Let's go.” Joshua suddenly gets rid of the grip off teacher and points the gun to him and shot him to chest. I scream hard and start to cry. “You killed him!” “Shut up! Both of you!” He pointed gun to us now. Mom and I were now sitting on the floor helpless. “Tara, Tara, Tara...” he laughed and lift my mom up. “No! Mother.” I cried. “Just let her be alone.” My mom begged him but he only smiled. “Oh sweet Tara. You don't know how part she is about this. I only engaged with you to be near by her. And you know what? I have raped her many times in this room. Right there.” He pointed on the floor where I was sitting on. Mom looks at me and start to cry. “No. That is not true. Mary tell me it's not true.” I only cried and have hands on my stomach. I was still on pain. “She won't tell a thing cause I told to not to. You wanna know why?” Joshua asked. “You disgusting piece of shit! She's 12 years old! How could you!?” My mom now shouted at him. Joshua only laughed. He think this was funny. “Look at you daughter, Tara. She's most beautiful young girl I ever seen and I so wanted her. I couldn't let that guy...” he was pointed Backstreet Boys poster on my wall. He was talking about Nick Carter. “...To do that honor. And besides, he's 9 years older than she is. Why you think she would ever meet him and get married and have some kids, Tara? That's only dream she have. I can give her everything she wants. You were only toy for me, Tara.” I couldn't believe what I just heard. He was after me? I stood up and looked at to Joshua and my mom. “Mom... I'm very sorry. I should tell you earlier about this.” I started to cry. “It's okay sweetheart. I forgive you. You go to USA and find that guy.” She pointed at to Nick. “No! She don't go anywhere!” He was pointing gun on me now and mom tried to stop him. “Don't shot her. She's only 12 years old!” I saw my sister Hannah standing in hallway. Joshua was focusing on to mom. I only watched my sister very afraid look on me. Hannah went to balcony and tried to be silent as she can. I didn't know what she was doing but hoping that she was about to call 911 right now. “You don't know anything about her, Tara. She's mine, little girl. And I tell when she dies and it's her time right now.”

I was in my thoughts and suddenly I heard my dad's voice. “Mary? You okay?” I looked at to my dad. He was really here. Yes dad. What are you doing here? How long it's been?” He out me on his arms and hugs me tightly. “8 years my little angel. 8 years.” I missed him so much. He looked to be very in good shape. “Dad. What are you doing here?” He looked at me to my face and smiled. “I live here sweety. I have live here 6 years now. What are you doing here with the Backstreet dude?” he touched my cheek and smiled. “Oh dad. It's Backstreet Boys. Not dudes.” I walked back to sit on my bed. “Okay... Boys. So how's your mother doing? She must be very happy with Joshua.” He sat on bed next to me. I don't wanna remember that again. “Dad... Mom and Joshua are dead. Joshua killed mom and then he killed himself by jumping on the building.” I started to cry to think of for the moment that happened.

Tara Pirke

“No! Don't kill my little girl! Please! I'll do anything!” My mom was on her knees to beg to Joshua to not to kill me. “Oh so you want me to kill you?” Joshua asked and looked down to my mom. I was praying to my sister to call police soon as possible. And then I heard siren near by. It was police, ambulance and even fire engine. My mom was going to be okay now. “Cops! Who called fucking cops?!” Joshua shouted and pointed gun to moms forehead hard. “I don't know! Please. It can be neighbors cause you shot Mary's teacher. Please don't kill us!” Mom was still begging on her knees and cried. “Shut up Tara. Let me think for moment!” Joshua shouted and started to be panicked. Mom looked to me and smiled. “Everything is going to be okay sweety” I nod to mom and smiled for bit. “Everything is not going to be okay! Come here you piece of shit!” Joshua crapped my mom out of my room. I was afraid to that he was going to kill her. “Don't try to escape!” I hear Joshua to shout to my mom. “No let me go! Police is here and you can't escape from them!” I crawled slowly to my rooms door to see something. I peeked to outside and saw that mom and Joshua were on balcony. Oh no... Hannah was there too. But somehow I couldn't see her. 


Suddenly I felt someones hand on my mouth. “Please... Be quiet. It's me.” I looked up to see sister. “What is going on?” She whispered quietly. “Joshua had rapped me many times and now it came out. I'm so scared he's gonna kill us.” Hannah looks to balcony and sees a gun. “Where did he get a gun?” She asked. “I don't know. Please. Was it you who call a cops?” She looked down on me and smiled. “My sweet little sister. Of course I did. I saw how you showed with your eyes to call 911. We have to find away to get mom out of there.” She start to think but suddenly Joshua comes back inside with mom from balcony. “Hey! Get away form her!” Joshua was now pointing gun to Hannah. Oh she's trouble. Hannah step back on Mary and looks at Joshua. “You don't deserve my mom. Not the way you had treat me and Mary. You hit us and kick us. And then you rape my little sister. You deserve to die!” Hannah was shouting to Joshua. “Please, Hannah. What ever you decade to do, do not.” mom said and looked so sad. “Listen your mother and put the bat away.” My sister hold a bat? I looked up to my sister who was holding bat on her hands. “No. Over my dead body.” Hannah said and hold her bat tightly on her hands. “Fine.” Joshua said and point the gun to Hannah and shoot. “NOOOOO!” Mom shouted and jump between bullet and my sister. “Mother!” I shouted. Joshua watched to us and then run away. “Mother! No!” Hannah shouted and went to next to mom who was laying down on floor bleeding. “My sweet little girls. Be good girls. Mommy loves you both so much.” She touch us both from the cheek gently and then she was gone. “No! Mother! Please don't die! Oh God!” Hannah shout and cried. I couldn't move. I couldn't speak. I just watched my moms dead body. Hannah was holding moms body against her body and hold her tightly. “I swear god mom that he's gonna pay for this.”

Nick Carter Fan Fiction: Forbidden Love 43

Chapter 43

Mari gets out of the hospital and everyone are happy about it. All is asking all the time why she tried to do suicide. Mary was too tired to answer any questions. She only walked upstairs and walks to her old room. Nick looks at everyone disappointed. “What is wrong with you, all? She just get out of the hospital. Give her some space will you.” And he walked upstairs too. Mary looks around the room and sighs. She then feels someones hand around her warmly and feels lips on her neck. “Hey... You okay?” Nick whispered softly to Mary's ear. She turn around face to face him. “No I'm not okay, Nick. Soon I'll need to go hospital again cause of Mike.” She touch her stomach gently and sighs. Nick put her to another hug and gives kiss to cheek. “You are doing fine.” Mary move away form Nick and looks at him. “I need to go bathroom. I'll be right back.” She then walk out of the room to bathroom. Nick looks after her and sighs. “I'll be here waiting.” He said to himself and sat down on bed and fall on his back to lay down.

Mary sit on toilet and sighs deep. Suddenly she got the feeling that someone is with her. She looks around and be scared cause there's standing woman on the shower. She fall on the floor and point at to woman. “W-w-who are you?” woman only smiles and walks closer to help Mary to stand up. “No need to scare me. I will no harm.” Mary looks at woman as mouth is open. “You look just like me.” She point woman first and then herself. “How that can be possible?” Mary asked choked. Woman helps Mary to sit down and start to speak, but just only smile. “DO you know who I am?” Mary nods her head. “You are dead.” Mary said and looks at woman. “Yes. My name is Emilia. You might heard of me.” Mary gulps and can't stop staring her. “You are so beautiful to be as dead.” Emilia smiles to Mary and sat down edge of bathtub. “Thank you. You are very beautiful yourself and I can see you are about labor soon.” Emilia point to Mary's stomach. They talk chat long time.

Nick started to worry and began to think. “She's too long gone.” He think for moment what happened last time when she was on bathroom. “Oh no.” He jump off the bed and start to knock the door. “Mary? Answer me. Are you okay?” He heard some giggle and then Mary opens door. “Hey. Yes. I'm fine. I'm talking with Emilia.” Mary said and pointed to bathtub what was empty. Nick looks at bathroom and is confused. “I don't see her. Here's no one.” Nick looks at Mary. “You don't see her? She's right there.” Mary said and pointed to bathtub and then she sees that there really is no one. “She was here before. I swear Nick. She was here.” Mary looks at Nick. Nick walks more inside to bathroom and then looks at to Mary. “Mary. You saw delusions. I had that too. I had seen her too, but I know it's only delusions.* Nick touch gently to Mary's face and smiles. “Why she can be alive and never show herself to me? Any idea why?” Mary put her look down and is like she's knowing something. “You know something. What she told you?” Nick asked and try to look at her eyes. Mary open her hand and there's 2 rings on her hand. Nick knows those rings and start to freak out. “Where did you get those?” Mary looks at Nick and walks closer to him. “She gave them to me. Just before you knock the door.” Nick step away form Mary and shakes his head. “No... I buried those with her. This can't be happening. This is too much. I need some air.” He walks out of the bathroom and walks to his own rooms balcony.

Mary looks at rings for moment and then walks out of the bathroom. “Finally it's free.” Aaron said and runs to bathroom fast. Mary looks at Aaron odd face on her face. “Here's bathroom somewhere else, you know.” Mary said. Aaron didn't respond anything. Mary walks to Nick's room and looks around to room to find Nick. Nick was on the balcony standing rest on his hand to fence edge. She don't know what to do so she put rings to Nick's table where's picture of Emilia. She take a picture and looks at it. “She was very beautiful.” Mary think on her mind and put it back to desk but then she recognize someone form the background form the picture. She looks at the person closely. It can't be. She takes a picture and walks out of the room. She walks to her room and sat next to her laptop. Search: Richie Suzi. There's was arrested picture of Richie and how he is getting free from jail. What she is going to do now?

“Mommy?” Mary heard Bridie's voice from the door and turn her head there. “Hey sweety. Is everything okay?” Bridie walks to her mommy and shows her hand. “I got hurt. Holly push me accidentally.” Mary lift her daughter to her laps and looks at her hand. “That's just small scratch sweety. We can fix that.” Gives kiss to Bridie's forehead. “Is daddy okay? I saw him sitting alone on the balcony.” Mary puts Bridie's hair aside and smiles to her. “Daddy had a bad day. Want to cheer him up?” Bridie nods and walks out of the room. “Wait for me Bridie.” Mary smiles and gets up, but the suddenly she feels something and she sit down back. “Aaah.” Mary said when she felt pain on her stomach. Bridie walks back to her mom and looks worried. “Mommy?” Mary looks at her daughter. “Go get daddy, sweety.” feels another big contraction and start to fall down to floor. Bridie runs to Nick and pulls his sleeve. “Daddy, daddy! Help mommy.” Nick looks at her daughter. “What is it Bridie? Where's mommy? Show your dad.” Bridie takes Nicks hand on to her and pulls him with her to Mary's room where Mary is sitting on floor. Nick runs to Mary and goes to his knees. “What's wrong?” Nick asked and looks at Mary who is feeling many contractions. “I think it's time to go back.” Mary said and can't stand up. “You are gonna labor? Now?” Nick is on big shock. “Yes! Ask someone to call 911 or I'm gonna labor this baby right here.Oh god it hurts so bad.” Mary shouted painfully.

“Someone call 911! Now! Aaron.. Call 911.” Point to Aaron who is walking on the hallway. “What she did now?” Aaron asked and looked at to Mary. “Nothing! She's going to labor! Now call 911!” Nick shouted to Aaron, so that almost the whole house was shaking. Aaron take his phone and start to make a call. Mary looks at to Nick very painfully. “Wow... I never had heard you that loud. So damn sexy.” Nick looks at Mary and gives kiss to her forehead. “It's bad time to talk about sex babe. First we need to get you hospital, you born labor and then get rest couple weeks. Then we can think that again.” Mary suddenly felt that pain stops and looks at to Nick. “I don't feel any pain now. Maybe wrong alarm.” Nick looks at Mary and smiles. “Don't look at me. I don't know anything about labors.” Mary smiles and then she felt something wet coming out of her vagina. Nick looks down at her and then put his look at Mary. “That was gross. What did you do?” Mary looks scare. “I guess water just broke.” Nick looks at to Mary. “I know that part. Okay... we are going.” Lift Mary to his arms and carry her out of the room. “Aaron... Tell them that I drive her there!” Shouts to Aaron when he is walking downstairs.

About in 20 minutes Nick drives to hospital and gets out of the car to other side to car. He opens Mary's side door and carry her to inside. “Someone help. My friend is going to labor!” Nurse walks to Nick and brings wheelchair where Nick let her down to sit down. “When her water broke?” Nurse asked and was moving Mary to labor room. “About 20 minutes ago.” Nick said still bit confused. “Are you father of this child, sir?” Nurse asked and Nick only shake his hand. “But she doesn't have anyone else than me.” Mary is feeling terrible pain. “Get this baby inside of me now!” Nurse helps Mary to labor chair and looks at to her Vagina. “We are ready to labor, miss. Need some anesthesia, miss?” Mary start to push and doesn't answer to nurse. “I guess not. You can stay sir.” Nick walks to Mary's right side and takes her hand to his. “I'm here. I don't go anywhere.” Nick kiss Mary's forehead what is all sweat. “Okay miss... push again.” Mary push hard and squeezed Nick hand hard. “Aaaaaargh!” Nick shouts about pain. Mary looks at Nick and let go of his hand. “Sorry.” Nick hold his hand and walks around the room painfully. “Son of... That hurt like hell.” Nurse looks at vagina again and looks at Mary. “Okay miss. I can see head... 1 last push. You can do it.” Mary took deep breath and then push very hard like she was roaring. Nick looks at down to Mary and sees small little baby coming out of her. “Oh my god. I had saw now everything. How did you do that?” And then suddenly he faint to floor. 

Nick Carter Fan Fiction: Forbidden Love 42

Chapter 42

Mary and Jesse were now official break up and Jesse didn’t want to be no longer with her. Well Jesse didn’t have another choice. They are going to have a son together. Jesse promised to Mary to take him sometimes to his place at weekends when he’s getting little bit bigger. Mary was sitting on the bathroom crying when water was running same time. She couldn’t believe that 5 years ended just like that. Her heart was so broken and throat hurts of crying. She couldn’t take it any much longer. She began to find something very sharp to cut her wrists. It makes her pain even cutting herself, but it’s not hurting much more than crying and missing Jesse. She finds razor and sat to toilet seat to think. She closed her eyes and cut her left wrist and then suddenly stops crying. She cut her right wrists too and then falls to floor against the wall. She lost her man she truly loves deeply. Blood fall to floor and moves other side behind the bathroom. Tina was sitting outside watching TV on the 2^nd floor and wonder that Mary was there already 1 hour. She walks to bathroom door and suddenly slips to something. She looks at to floor and sees blood. “Mary!? Open up!” Tina hit the bathroom door shouting. Aaron walks out of his room and so are others. “What is going on?” Aaron asked and looks at Tina. “Look at to floor, Aaron. How did it make you look like?” Tina was still shouting and tries to open the bathroom door. Everybody looks at the floor and sees blood. “No!” Hannah shouts and began to cry when she falls down to floor. Hayden tries to calm her. “Would someone open that door?!” he yelled to everyone. Kevin walks to bathroom and tries door. “Mary? Open the door. Now.” Kevin talked to Mary. There wasn’t respond. Kevin looks at Aaron. “You like so much climbing. Go outside to climb to wall to window.” he looks at Aaron and Aaron only nods and is gone. “And someone run to lake to tell Nick.” Kevin said and tries to open still door. “I’m on it!” Leslie shouts and left to run to lake. Hannah was still crying so much and her eyes were read. Hayden tried to calm her as possible he could. Aaron looks at the wall outside and began to try climbing. He climbs to bathrooms balcony and looks inside and sees Mary’s body on blood. “Kevin! I can’t get in! Can you hear me!?” he shouted behind the balcony door to Kevin who was inside behind the bathroom door. “Yes. Break the glass!” Kevin shouts back to him. Aaron covers his eyes and hits door glass with flowerpot.

Leslie runs to lake and shouts. “Nicholas!” Nick was sitting on terrace listen some music and hears someone shouting his name. He stands up and looks at to woods seeing Leslie. He removes headphones and looks at Leslie who is running like someone is running after her. “Leslie? What’s wrong?” Leslie stops near to Nick and gasp her breath cause of running so fast. “Mary… Bathroom…” Points to mansion way. Nick is confused. “Leslie what is it? I don’t understand you.” Leslie takes deep breath and then shouts to Nick. “Mary had cut herself with razor and is locked inside of the bathroom!” “SHE’S WHAT?!” And that second Nick drops his iPod and runs to mansion as fast he could. Leslie runs right behind Nick and is hoping that everyone had get her out.

Hannah Christensen

Aaron opens door to Kevin and walks to Mary. “Mary? Come on. Wake up.” Aaron laps her face so hard that she must respond but nothing. Kevin walks inside to and tries Mary’s pulse. “No pulse. Damn. We need to revitalize her, Aaron. You do a mouth and I do pushes. Got it?” Aaron nods and does it as he was told. Nick walks to upstairs and moves everyone away from door and looks at to bathroom. He sees Mary to laying down on the floor without movement. “I got no pulse.” Aaron said and looks at Kevin and then sees Nick standing near. “What? No…” Nick said and walks to bathroom and start to give her revitalize. Kevin helps Nick, but no respond. Others are crying or look so sad. “I can’t watch this. I need some air.” Nina said and runs downstairs. Fatone walks after her. Tina directs the site administrators. Nurse touch Nick’s hand. “Sir. We take from her now. Move please.” Nick moves away and let’s nurses to do their job and looks at next to them what is going on. “Please. You got a save her. She can’t die.” Nick said sad, but wasn’t crying. He was crying inside and didn’t want to let other to know. Kevin stands next to Nick and hugs him brotherly. “It’s okay Nick. She’s strong. She will make it.” Kevin tries to call him. Nick is just watching Mary when nurses are trying to save her. “Clear!” other shouts and there was beeping. “What’s that?” Nick asked and another nurse looks up to Nick. “We got a pulse. We need to move her to ambulance now.” Nick sighs of relief and so are others too. Hannah walks to bathroom. “She’s alive?” She asked voice hoarse. Nurses nods to Hannah and moves her to stretcher. Hannah touch Mary’s hand before nurses moves her to outside to ambulance. “I need to be with my sister. I’ll come with her.” Hannah follows to ambulance. Nick is standing on the balcony and looks when ambulance is driving away from the mansion. Brian walks to balcony and sighs. “How you doing, Frack?” Nick heard Brian’s voice and turns his head to him and looks very sad. “Not good, Frick. Not good at all.” Brian walks closer to Nick and hugs her friendly. “I’m so sorry bro. I know how much you love her. She’s going to be fine. When she wakes up, she’s going to be faithfully for you. You helped her back.” Nick start to suddenly crying. “She’s everything to me, Brian. I don’t know what to do if I lose her.” Brian looks at Nick. “Let’s go to hospital see her. Wan that?” Nick only nod and walks back inside. Brian and Nick looks at to bathroom door and sees Bridie standing there looking at to floor where is still so much blood. Nick walks to Bridie and takes her to his arms. “No Bridie. Don’t look down there. Let’s go play outside, okay?” Nick looked at to Bridie who looks at him with her big blue eyes. “Bridie, sweety. I know you can talk so… Say something.” Nick said and smiles to Bridie. “Where’s mommy?” she asked very small soft voice. Nick felt his throat start to ache about thinking where she is. “She’s at the hospital. Do you know what is hospital?” Nick asked and Bridie only shake her head. “Well hospital is a place where they are fixing people. And your mom is not doing very good right now. She needs to be there for while. And that time I will look after you. Would you like that idea?” Nick asked and Bridie shyly nods. Nick smiles to Bridie and gives kiss to cheek. “Good. I was hoping you would.” Bridie suddenly hugs Nick and ask. “Would you be my daddy?” Nick smiles and put her down to floor and goes to her level. “I would love to and you know what? I am your father.” Nick said and looks at her. “You are?” Bridie ask. Nick nods. “Yes I am sweety. And now we are going to make some pancakes and going to hospital and give mommy some too.” Bridie looked very exciting about the idea and runs to kitchen shouting.”Pancakes! Yay!” Nick laughs and walks after her to kitchen.

At hospital in 4 hours waiting Mary began open her eyes weakly. She sees someone but not very clearly. “Mary? You hear me? It’s your sister Hannah here.” Mary closed her eyes and opened them again. “Where I am?” she asked weakly. “At the hospital.” Hannah said and touched Mary’s hand. “Oh my poor little sister. What were you thinking to take your life like that? You almost died.” she sounded so sad and confused what Mary was thinking. “I was thinking Jesse. I was so sad and I needed to take that pain away.” Mary said very hoarse voice. “To take pain away with another pain? Oh sister.” she gives small kiss to her forehead. “Where’s Bridie?” Mary asked and looked around. “She’s hallway with Nick. Want me to invite them in?” Hannah asked and looked at to Mary. Mary looks at to her sister. “Nick’s here?” Mary questioned. Hannah nods and smiles. “He was so worried about you. He even give you revitalize to get you back here with us.” Mary sighs and lick her lower lip cause mouth is so dry. “Can I have some water?” Hannah nods and gives water to Mary. “So can I ask them in?” Hannah asked. “Only Bridie please. I don’t want to see him.” Mary gives mug back to her sister. “But he saved your life.” Hannah looked at to her sister. “Please. Bridie doesn’t know about that Nick is her father.” Hannah isn’t looking at Mary and sat down on chair. “What?” Mary asked and looked at to her sister. “Bridie knows. Nick told her.” Hannah looks at her sister who looks so pissed. “What?! That son of bitch.” She start to get up off the bed, but Hannah stops her. “Where are you going?” Mary looks at her sister. “To killing myself.” Hannah looks at her sister. “Please stop that. Come on. Go back lay down on to bed.” Mari sighs and lay down back. “Fine. Let her only come.” Hannah walks hallway and says that Mary only want to see Bridie. “I want daddy to come too.” Bridie said and Nick goes to her level. “I’m right here waiting. If mommy doesn’t want to see me then that’s fine. You go and give her those pancakes. Say to her that they are made from love.” *Smiles to Bridie who smiles to back to him. “Okay daddy.” Bridie says and walks to inside to see her mommy. “Oh sweetheart. Come here.” *Lift Bridie to bed. “What you got there?” Mary asked and looks at the box. “Daddy and I made pancakes for you. They are made from love.” Bridie said and smiles to mommy. “Oh sweety. Thank you.” *Gives kiss to her cheek and smiles. “Do you like daddy? Has he been nice to you?” Mary asked and looked at to her daughter. “Yes mommy. Daddy is funny. He blew to flour bag and his face was all white.” Bridie said and start to laugh. Mary smiles and hugs t Bridie. “That’s your daddy alright. Goofyn around.” Mary looks to hall way from window and sees Nick to standing there looking at her and Bridie. Nick waves his hand and smiles. Mary smiles back to him and hold Bridie tight against to her chest. “Can daddy come inside. he looks so lonely out there.” Bridie said and looks at to hallway. Mary looks at Bridie and smiles. “Sure. Go get him.” Let Bridie down off the bed carefully. Bridie walks to hallway and pull Nick to room. “Come daddy.” Bridie climb to bed again and looks at her parents. Nick stands further away from Mary. “Hi. How you are feeling?” he asked and looks at Mary. “I’m good. Thank you saving my life. Hannah told me that you saved me.” Mary said and looks at to Nick. “Actually… Your sister is lying. I did not save you.” Nick said and walks closer. “She said you gave me revitalize.” Mary looks at to Nick. Nick looks at to hallway and Hannah is only smiling to them. “Well yeah I did, but I didn’t get your pulse back.” Put his look back on her. Mary looks at to hallway and is confused. “Why my sister would say something like that?” she asked and Nick sat down to chair. “There could be many reasons.” Mary looks at to Bridie. 

Bridie Sofia Carter

“Bridie darling. Can I speak with daddy for moment alone? Go to Aunt Hannah for moment.” Bridie nods and gives kiss to both and walks out of the room. “She’s amazing. We made a great kid. I know now everything about her. She can’t stop talking.” Nick said and smiles to Mary. “I know she is. She’s my sweet parrot.” Mary said and smiles. “So… Why did you do it?” Nick asked. Mary sigs and doesn’t look at him. “Please don’t. It’s past now.” Nick stand up and moves closer to her. “Cause what Jesse did?” Nick asked. Mary doesn’t still look at him and looks down to her stomach. “What if cause of that?” Mary asked and touched her stomach. “You almost killed Mike. You are so stupid.” Nick said and looks at Mary. “Please look at me.” Mary shakes her head. “No.” Nick sighs and looks down to his feet. “Fine. I’m just trying to friendly here and you are acting as I’m some kind of dickhead.” Mary moves her head to looks at to him who is now looking down to his feet and looks very sad. Mary sees Nick hand on her bed and touch it gently. “I’m sorry. You are not dickhead. I am.” Nick lift his head up at to see her looking at him. “Yes you are. I wouldn’t know what to do without you.” Nick said and moves chair to closer bed to sit on near by her. Mary looks at Nick. “I shouldn’t come to USA.” Mary said with hoarse voice. “Don’t say that. I’m glad you did. I can’t stop thinking of you. Please move back here.” Nick said and looks at to Mary to her blue eyes. “Nick… Don’t.” Mary began to talk, but Nick stops her talks by kissing her gently. “Please think of it. I still love you so much and I want to spent rest of my life with you and Bridie.” He said and he kissed her one more time and walked out of the room to hallway. Mary touched her lips and is not moving. She knows those kisses for real and words he said sounded so real. Did he meant about everything he said? Mary looks at to hallway and sees Nick and Hannah talking about something. Hannah nods and hugs Nick. Then Nick hugs Bridie and let her down. And after that he walks away from them. Mary gets off the bed and walks slowly to door and open it. “Nick!” Hannah walks to Mary and holds her standing better. Nick turns around and sees Mary on her feet. Mary smiles to Nick. “I never stop loving you!” She shouted at him to other side of hallway. Nick runs back to Mary as smiling and kisses her deeply. “I love you, Mary.” Nick said and holds her. Mary smiles and is hugging Nick tightly. “And I love you, Nick. Forgive me.”

Nick Carter Fan Fiction: Forbidden Love 41 2/2

**Nick's view**

She kissed me? I felt her lips on my lower lip and I just start to kiss her back. I move my hand to her hips and start to move her with me to bed what was in the bedroom. She followed me still kissing me and she touched me under my shirt. Oh yes touch me baby. I put my hand to her cheek and kissed her passionate and move her to bed to lay down. I move on her and touch her breasts. She gasp her breath and felt my touch. Remove her dress and touch her stomach and kissed gently. She close her eyes and was enjoying. It felt like it's been while when she was having sex. I know my trick would work to get her here. I remove my shirt off and and move to next to her. She couldn't stop touching me. She touched my six back and pull me on my back. She was on me now. She gently touched my stomach and smiled. “You have working out. Looks very hot.” I didn't say anything. Just laying down watching her. She moves her hand to my short and remove it away. She throw them away somewhere, but I didn't look where. I was just looking at her. She was so beautiful. She had dye her hair to blonde. I like it, but she was more beautiful as Brunette. I was not totally naked and she was only wearing... I looked down on her and look what she was wearing. Thongs? She was wearing thongs? Damn that was hot as hell. “What?” She asked and looked at me. “You are wearing thongs. When we use to date, you never wear thongs.” I winked at to her and rub her back gently. She smiled at me and bend down to kiss me. I was about to move her things away and then suddenly I her him. “Mary?! Are you here?! Bridie needs you!” It was Jesse. Just perfect timing! “That's Jesse. I have to go.” She moves carefully off the bed and takes her dress. “No... Door is locked. He won't get in.” I whispered to her. She looks at me and is dressing up. “I'm very sorry.” She then walked out of the room. I was just laying down on bed naked. And I was so close to have her. Damn it. I heard her to talk with Jesse outside in terrace. I fast stand up and put my short and t-shirt on. “Don't lie to me, Mary. You had sex with him. Did you?” Oh god. He was really pissed me off. I walked to kitchen and I was acting like I was cooking or something. Jesse suddenly walks in and looks at me. “You! What did you do to her?” Mary walked inside right after him. I looked back at him. “Nothing. I'm just cooking. We talked about Bridie. I can take her in my host 2 times in month at weekends. And then she said she was getting hungry so I thought why not to cook.” I lie to him and that was very good lie I ever made. Jesse looks at Mary. “You hungry, babe?” Mary nods and looks bit scared. “We then eat. How can I help, Nick?” Jesse asked and washed his hands. “It's just salad with rice. This is fast done.” I then took kettle from cabinet. “Okay. I need to use bathroom.” Jesse said and I pointed at second door next to bedroom. Jesse walked to bathroom and I then looked at Mary. She walks closer to me and whispers. “That can't never happen again, Nick. I'm getting married.” I looked at her. “You kissed me back. You still have feelings for me.” I whispered her and touched her hand. She moves her hand away from my hand. “Just let's eat and then Jesse and I are getting back to mansion.” She walked to inside to terrace. I sighed an hoped that Jesse wouldn't come and find her here. I must think someone in the mansion has told him where Mary was. I had only thing to do is cooking. Cooking for 3. To me, Mary and Jesse. Oh and of course to baby inside of her stomach. Great. I was so wanted her, but damn Jesse needed to ruin everything of course. He walks out of the bathroom and looks around. “Where did she go?” I looked outside from the kitchen window. “Sitting on terrace. She looks very sad. You should go to comfort her. She's been very upset.” I looked at him and he looked pissed. “Upset of what? That I haven't sex with her in 6 months?” They haven't had sex in 6 months. What was wrong with this guy? Every women needs love no matter how they look like. “Upset her mother. She misses her.” And then I continued cooking. Jesse walked to terrace and I can hear them talking. He sounded calming her down and saying that everything is going to be okay and her mom will watching her. I couldn't still believe that Jesse haven't make love to her in 6 months. No wonder Mary was in mood just 5 minutes ago. I had done salad and carry some plates and cooking equipment to terrace table. “Tell me something Nick. Do you still love Mary?” Jesse asked suddenly when I was set the table. “Please Jesse. Would you just let it go. Nothing didn't happened.” Mary said. I looked at to both of them. “Honestly. I still do. I have past these 5 years when I leave her cause I haven't offered her marriage. I was so stupid to let her go. Is that the answer you are looking for, Jesse?” I looked at to Jesse who looked speechless. “Well yes. Thanks for being honest.” I walked back inside and I heard them arguing about something. “Jesse don't go. Let's eat.” Mary said and I looked from the living-room window that Jesse was walking away from house to mansion. What they were talking about? Mary walked inside and looked at me. “Are you happy now? He dump me. There's no wedding next year.” I looked at her and I didn't know what to say. “I should go after him and talk with him.” She then walked out and walked after Jesse back to mansion. There's no wedding? Jesse dumped her? This was really happening. I got a chance now to get her to myself. I took plate and put on it some rice and salad. Well salad is good. And so is thing around here again. Mary was free meat and I was ready to take a chance and bite her. Well not for real. But why Jesse dumped her? I would fight for her if I would be him. I walked back to terrace and sat down to chair and ate my salad. It was very good. It was quiet in here. I took 5 minutes and someone drive with motorcycle. I stand up and looked at to forest. It was Aaron. Just great. I wanted to be alone and now everybody comes here to interrupt me. Aaron hit the breaks and shut the engine. “Hey bro. What's up?” He get off the on it and take his helmet off. “Nothing much. Fighting with Jesse and Mary.” Aaron walks to terrace and looks at me. “Is it true that you still love Mary?” Aaron sit on chair and looks at salad and start to eat is from his own plate. “Yes. It is. And I told Jesse the truth. He wanted to hear it.” I looked at Aaron who was eating like a pig. “Good you do, Nick. I just heard they are not getting married. Just wanted to come and tell you.” He just keep eating salad. “I know they did Aaron. They broke up right this terrace. I heard everything. Well not everything, but they were talking, arguing.” I looked at to Aaron. Aaron stops eating and looks at me. “You knew? Oh god. Why I need to be last to know about everything?” I laughed and pat his shoulder. “Come on now. Not about everything.” Aaron lift his head and looks at me. “Okay here view examples. You and Mary broke up. I knew that last. Hannah and Hayden getting married. I knew that last. I'm going to be father. Last to know.” What? I looked at Aaron surprised. “What? You going to be dad?” I questioned and he claps his hands together. “Oh you should see your face man.” Aaron started to laugh hard and walked to his bike. “That wasn't funny Aaron! You know that!” I laughed at him and throw pillow to him from couch what was in terrace. Aaron laughs and throws it back. “You would be great uncle, Nick. I'm sure Leslie is going to be first. She's pregnant, you know.” I smiled at to him. “Yeah I knew that.” He looks at me. !What? See I'm always the last about knowing things. Okay bro. I'm off. See you later.” He start the engine and drove of with his bike to woods. I only laughed and sat back to couch. Poor Aaron. He really knows everything as last. I stand up and took all dishes to inside. I couldn't stop smiling, cause what almost happened between me and Mary today. It would be best way to start to date again. Oh I missed her touches already. This was torture. Where was she? Was she with Jesse right now? Well if she was then I can only imagine them fighting and Jesse hitting her to face. Oh I don't think he's like that. Or is he? I was start to think while I was putting dishes to to dishwasher. If I can find any bruise of her, I'm gonna kill that guy. And not having sex with her in 6 months? That's just crazy. I haven't be without sex that long. I get laid 4 nights ago with this very gorgeous woman I met in the bar. She was wasted and I wasn't so. No big deal. She left me a number when she left next morning but I throw it away cause I didn't want to do her again. I love Mary. I'm going to get her back no matter what. We will get married and having some more children. Only thing I need to do is now realize that I'm the only guy she loves. Forever.

Nick Carter Fan Fiction: Forbidden Love 41 1/2

Chapter 41 

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**Mary's view**

I stand there for moment and looked that Nick left very pissed off. Oh I had it enough with him. I walked after him. Didn't care what other thought. I have to talk to him to not take this to court. I asked from Bob where did Nick went. He pointed to forest where was foot bath to somewhere. I thanked him and walked to forest. Couldn't run with this big stomach. It take maybe 1 minute to walk that bath and I saw this cute small house. I looked at for second. It was very cute. I was light blue. Windows frames were white. Reminds me of summerhouse. I looked inside to from window, but it was no one in there. I walked to front door what was other side of the house. I tried to door, but it was locked. I looked around and there he was. Sitting docks edge, feet into water. I looked very pissed and so was I. I walked closer very quietly and tried to be calm. He then suddenly turns around and sees me. I guess he heard me walking. Damn this weight. If I can get my own weight back he wouldn't hear me walking. “Just leave me alone.” And he put his look back to water. I stopped walking and looked at dock. “Please come here so we can talk. I can't come with this stomach there.” I tried to joke for bit but he didn't laugh or smile. He turn his head to look at me. “I can hear you from here just fine. What you want?” And then he looked back to water. “Please Nick. Don't take her away from me. She's everything to me.” I looked at him and he took deep breath. “What else I can do? You never called and tell me about her. “ Okay... I needed to be near by him. I took first step carefully to dock and then he turns around to look at me. “What are you doing? You hurt yourself here.” He stood up and looked at me. I stopped walking and put my hand crossed each other against to my chest. “So you do care. Why don't you talk to me like adult? Or you'll be over there.” I pointed at lake. He lift his eye browns up and looks at me. “You are not strong enough to do that.” I smiled devil look and walked closer to him. He looks to his feet and sees that dock is going down and water is getting up. “Don't. Stop. Okay. I'm coming.” And he walks away from dock. “I knew that will work.” I smiled for bit and walked to terrace for sit to chair. Nick sat to another chair and looks at me. “How far are you?” he points at to my stomach. I looked down to my stomach and touch it gently. “8 months and 2 weeks. So labor is soon. I hope I won't labor in the wedding.” I looked at to Nick and smiled. He smiled for bit. He moves closer to me and is rest on to his knees with his both elbows. “I'm very sorry. I know I hurt you. And very badly.” He then looks at up to me. I looked down to him and smiled. “That's kinda of too late now, Carter. You are too late for ask forgiveness.” He moved back and rest on chair now and looks at me. “I know. I just thought you might forgive me. You kind of did in my dream. I see dreams about you a lot lately. I think those means something.” I smiled and looked at him. “It's only a dream Nick. Those are not real.” I told him and he stands up and moves to edge of to handrail and rest on it with his hands. “I still love you. I can't live without you. I shouldn't let you go with him. But I did. This all is my fault.” I stand up and walked closer to him. “It is your fault. You didn't want to get married. And you said never. I still remember that Nick.” He close his eyes and is now resting on to handrail with elbows and put his hands to his eyes to not cry. “I know I said that. I was fucking 24. Now that I'm older, I can't stop thinking of marriage. I want to get married. Stupid I know.” He took deep breath and stand up straight. “How tall are you?” I looked up to Nick, who was so tall. “189cm. Why?” He lift himself to on the handrail sitting and looks at me. “Nothing. You are very tall. Taller when I saw you last time.” He grinned and smiled. “Are we here talking about how tall I am or about Bridie?” I have to smile for that. I was nervous to be around him. No wonder. He looked so sexy and his body. Did he have six back under his shirt? I might gonna see it soon if he goes to pool or just taking a sun. “Mary? You with me?” I was in my thoughts and Nick snapped his fingers to wake me up. “Sorry. Yeah... We are here talking about Bridie.” I said and sat to nearest chair to look at him while we are talking. “What were you thinking? You were quiet like 10 seconds.” he said and looked at me smiling. “Nothing. Just let it go. It was nothing.” I didn't look at him. He was too sexy to be true. “Come on. You can't even look at me. You were thinking of me, right?” He was still looking at me and I can see he was smiling like he was enjoying this. I looked up to him. “No I wasn't thinking of you. Like I said. It's nothing.” He fall down off the handrail and moves closer to me and is resting his hands to chairs handrail where I'm sitting on and looks at me to my eyes. “You are lying. I know when you are lying. You are panicking now cause I'm this close to you. You might thinking how good I look. And now you are might thinking. “What was I thinking to let him go? He's so handsome.” And yes dear. I have six back if you wonder what. So please. Tell me the truth. If you lie to me one more time. I'll kiss you.” I looked at to him to his eyes and I gulped. This wasn't happening. I was panicking alright. He was handsome as hell. And he was right about everything. Think Mary think! “So? What was you thinking?” he asked very calm and moves closer and closer to my lips. “My mom.” I said and he moves further back. “Your mom?” he looks me into my eyes and start to read me. “Yes. I just figure that my mom is dead and she have no chance to meet her grandchildren. I feel so sad about it.” I hope that will work. Nick knows how much I miss my mom cause she past away 5 weeks ago before I even knew Nick. He moves away from me and rest on to handrail with his back. “Sorry. I know how much you miss your mom. I shouldn't be so rude. And it's not my place to know what are you thinking. I'm sorry.” Wow... That really worked. I'm proud of myself. Sorry mom that I use you for excuse. “Well if she would be still alive she's your child grandmother. And I know how much you would like her. She believed on God. Me another hand. Not so much.” He looks at me and looks very mystery. “One thing what keeps me wondering.” He walks back and forth on terrace in front of me. “What's that, Nick?” I looked at him when he was walking. He stops and looks at me. “Did you really went to back to Finland?” He took that up. “Yes. Jesse moved there with me. We are living there.” I looked seriously at him. “Jesse? In Finland?” he started to laugh. I stand up and punch him to shoulder. “Don't you dare to laugh. He's doing good in there. He is learning Finnish. You another hand are not so helpful.” He looks at me and stops laughing. “Ouch. That hurt.” He touches his shoulder. “Don't be such an baby.” He goes down to his knees and takes something under mat. “Wanna see inside?” He shows me a key as smiling. “You know someone could robber this place if they would know that key is right under their feet.” I looked at to him. He opens the door and put lights on. “I build this with Brian and Alex. Very cool huh?” He walks to kitchen what was in the same room with living-room. House was very beautiful. “it is cool. So who pick up the colors?” I sat on the couch. Oh it was very comfortable. “I did. This is my place where I sleep at night sometimes when I wanna be alone.” He was doing something in the kitchen. “What are you doing in there?” He only laughed and then he comes back with two glasses and bottle of... champagne? “Want some wine?” He asked and shows a bottle of wine. “I can't drink Nick. I'm pregnant.” I looked at him. “Don't worry. It's non-alcohol.” He pour to both glass some wine and handed to me another one. I was unsure first, but I took a glass. “Okay. 1 glass.” he smiles and sat to coffee table and looks at me and holds his glass on his hands. “Tell me what you want.” I took a zip of the wine and looks at to Nick. “I don't want you to take this to court. Bridie is 4 years old. She's going to be sad if you take her away from me.” He looks at me to my eyes and smiles for bit. “Why didn't you tell me I have a daughter? And don't tell me cause you promise not to talk to me. Give me very good reason.” He didn't shout at me so I had a chance to think for moment. “Well I wasn't first sure was she yours. I found out last year that she is. And I was already engaged with Jesse.” He stops me and looks at me. “What? You are what?” He looked very surprised and same time chocked. “I'm engaged with Jesse. We are getting married next year.” He stand up and feels upset. “And I thought I have a chance to get you back.” he turns around to look at me. “How could you do this to me? Getting married with a guy who I hate.” he looked disgusting on his face. I stood up and throw the glass to wall. “Fuck you! I loved you, but I had to do what I had to do. He will makes me happy. And now you are telling me that you want to get married! Is too late Nick! I'm going to marry him and you won't stop me!” I yelled at him and walked to front door. “We are not finished here!” he walks to between me and door. “We are! Now please let me go back to my fiancé!” I looked at him angry. “No! We need to talk about this! I can't let you marry him! Over my dead body!” he yelled at me and was just standing in front of door to not let me go. “Fine!” I yelled at him and took golf club to my hands. “Now move or I swear god I'll kill you!” I threatened him with golf club. “With that?” He asked and pointed at golf club. I looked what I have in my hand and then suddenly he took it away from my hands very fast. Oh he didn't! “Let me go! Help!” I yelled hard I could and then Nick shut my mouth. “Don't yell. I don't wanna hurt you. Okay? I just can't you to marrying him. I love you, Mary.” He looked at me to my eyes and I tried to get off him, but he was strong. He had work out! “I let my hand away from your mouth easily. Don't scream okay?” I nod for him and start to calm down. He let go his hand away from my mouth and step aside. “See? Didn't hurt you.” I saw umbrella near by and moved closer to it still looking at to him. “Well... You didn't but I will.” I took umbrella and hit with it to Nick to stomach. He fall down to his knees and then against to wall to lay down. “Oh god that hurt! Why did you do that?” I looked at him. “Cause you won't let me go and I want to be with my fiancé. You can't stop me to marrying him. Stay away from me and Jesse.” I said and walked to door. “Stop! If you go, I definitely take this to court and told the judge about what did you do. And you going to lose her for good.” I was about to open the door, but what he just said stopped me to go. I looked at to him and he was still on the floor in pain. “You have to let me go, Nick. I don't love you anymore. It's over.” He get up weakly and walks closer to me very slow. “Just... Don't go yet. I just wanna be near you. Feel your hands around me. Kiss you. Touch you. Hold you. Marry you.” I looked at to him and I was choked. I was about to go married next year with Jesse and he ask me to marry him? “Marry you? Nick... I said I don't love you. You left me to that room alone.” And then suddenly he kisses me very passionate. And touch me gently from my cheek with both hands. “I love you. We can work this. Please. I beg you.” I lick my lower lip and still taste his kisses on it. I so missed those kisses. I touch gently Nicks hand and looks at him. “No... We can't Nick.” He shake his head and hold me tight around his arms. “Don't say that. Yes we can. I love you too much. I can't let you go. Don't go. I will die inside if you are not around me. I won't be happy without you. I never had love someone like this before.” Oh no. My body was giving up any minute now. I so wanted to kiss him and touch his body. His body was HOT! I couldn't help it, but I lift my head up for bit and kiss his lower lip for bit. He react it and start to kiss me back. He touch me from my hips slowly. Was I really going to cheat on Jesse? I haven't had sex in 6 months! And I was in mood!

Nick Carter Fan Fiction: Forbidden Love 40

Chapter 40

**Nick's View**

It’s been 5 years when I saw her last time. It’s now July’s 30^th 2009 and she’s now what 20 years old. We had moved to bigger house. There was 5 levels and everyone had own rooms. Hannah’s, Nina’s and Tina’s view friends are here too. Their names are Anna, Sidney and Heidi. Other Backstreet guys moved here too with their wifes and girlfriends. Good to have them around here. Hannah and Hayden are getting married this weekend and all was so mess up. I’m Hayden’s best men. Glad I can help for him. I knew I’m going to see Mary today. She wouldn’t ever miss her sister’s wedding. At the moment I’m not dating anyone. Thing didn’t go very well with Mariah. I started my live the better. I almost die last year by using drugs and alcohol. I guess I was missing her so much. Wondering was she still with Jesse? I so hoped she would be single. Door bell ring and Hannah ran fast she could to front door and screamed loud. “Oh my god! You are here! Oh gosh I missed you so much! How did you find here?” I heard her screaming and laughing. And then I heard familiar voice. It was her. “Hey. Well it was very difficult. Good to be back. I need to go pee. I have hold it so long.” I wanted to look to front door, but I just couldn’t look. “Yeah. Walk thought the living-room and then right. There’s some guys living-room. They can tell you the way.” I heard them talking and I heard Hannah to say Living-room. I was in the living-room. I stoop up of the couch and was going to walk backyard door, but then I heard her saying something. “Excuse me… Where’s bathroom?” She must be asking that from me. I didn’t turn around and I just pointed at to right side to door and walked outside. I walked to grill where dad was grilling and sat to chair. “She’s here, dad. I’m nervous.” Bob looked inside and then back to me. “She is? Where did she go?”he asked and was just grilling. “She went to Bathroom. She asked that from me and I pointed at to her.” “How did she look like? Did she look good?” I looked up to my dad. “I didn’t look . She only saw me from back.” I fall to chair and drank my beer. Suddenly I hear some kids laughing outside. I looked at to child and it was this little girl who had blonde hair and green dress. I looked at my dad. “Did she…?” Bob lift his shoulders up. “I don’t know. Maybe she did.” I sighed and fall down back to chair. Then I heard her again with Hannah to walking outside. “Oh it’s so beautiful here. And house is so huge. So where we can sleep at weekend?” We? She was with someone? I looked at dad. “I can’t do this. I have to talk to Hayden and tell him how sorry I am. I can’t just be around her. It’s just too much.” Dad looked very surprised look on his face. “What?” I questioned. He points somewhere with his finger and I looked at where dad pointed his finger. Oh my god! Was she…? Can’t be!

**Mary’s view**

I sat down to garden chair and talked with my sister about wedding. “Oh flowers looks amazing. I’m so happy for you. You are going to be tomorrow Mrs. Christensen.” She was happy. I can totally tell. I looked around and start to think where was Nick. “Is Nick here or is he somewhere club drinking?” I looked at to my sister and Hannah pointed at to Nick with Bob. “He’s right there.” I looked at the way she pointed. Oh my god! Was that really him? Oh wow. He looks good and so sexy. “That’s Nick?” I was very choked and I looked at my sister. Hannah nods and smiles. “You should go talk to him. You two have daughter over there.” She pointed at my daughter Bridie. “Don’t point at her, please. I will tell him. he might be mad now why I didn’t tell him about Bridie. “And now you are pregnant to Jesse? Which one it is?” I looked at down to my stomach and touch it. “It’s a boy. We already decide a name for him. Mike.” I smiled to my sister. “So when you and Hayden are going to get some kids?” I was about to ask, but I felt someone’s hands around me and start to kiss my neck. “Here you are, babe. Are you running away from me?” I smiled and turn around to see Jesse. “No. I just came to see backyard. It’s so beautiful.” I kissed him gently and he smiled at to me. “Where’s Bridie? I found her something.” Shows soft toy what Bridie lost yesterday when we get to plane. “Oh you found it. She’s going to be so happy.” I stood up and hugged Jesse. Jesse laughs and hugs me. “I want to give it to her. So have you seen Nick?” He asked and I looked at him. “Yeah, but haven’t talk to him. He’s over there.” I pointed at to Nick who was now grilling while Bob was inside. Jesse looks at to Nick and waves to him. Nick waves back and just continues cooking. Jesse looks at me and smiles. “You should talk to him and tell him about Bridie.” I sat back down. “I will honey. Don’t you worry. You just go find Bridie.” I smiled to him and he gave me kiss before he left to find Bridie. I looked at back to my sister. “So I asked you a question.” She just smiles and was very mystery. “What? Are you?” I only asked and she nods smiling. “Oh my god!” I screamed so loud and start to hug her happily. “This is so great. I’m going to be aunt.” Hannah laughed to me and sighs. “Yes. It really is great. I never had been this happy. I love him so much. Oh I’m going to be nervous tomorrow.” I smiled to her. “You are just going to be fine.” I felt like I was needed to go bathroom again. “Oh god. I need to go bathroom again. Damn this child is killing me if he could have a chance.” I laughed and stood up. “Need help?” My sister asked and I only shake my head. “I’ll be fine. I’m right back.” I walked back to inside to bathroom. I looked at myself to mirror and I saw happiest woman in the world. I was finally engaged with Jesse and wedding is next year. And baby boy is on the way. I never thought baby comes first before wedding. I was finish by the bathroom and I open the bathroom door and Nick was behind it smiling. “Hey Mary. It’s been while.”

**Nick’s view**

She opened door and I looked at her smiling. “Hey Mary. It’s been while.” She looked at me and she got this wonder look on her face. “What you want?” She asked and I was just cool. “I just wanted to say hi. It’s been 5 years since we’ve been talking and here we are talking to each other.” She walked away from me to living-room and I followed her. “I can see you are still with Mr. McCartney. And made 1 kid and not other one is coming. Your dream did come true.” I looked at her she looked so beautiful even she was pregnant. And she was shining like a star. Pregnancy fits for her. She turns around to looking at me. “Seriously Nick. What you really want? Getting back together?” I started to laugh and I looked at her. “You are kidding me? You don’t want me back. You are with Jesse and you have very cute daughter out there and new on the way. I’m so happy for you guys.” I did fake smile and she notice it. “You don’t mean it. I recognize your fake smile.” she snapped at to me. “Alright. Fine. I’ll leave then.” I walked away from her to backyard door. “She’s yours, Nick.” She suddenly said and I freeze to door and start to think for moment and then I looked at to her. “What?” She walks closer to me and gulps. “She’s yours. Bridie is your daughter Nick. She’s 4 years old. I birth her when I was 15. I just couldn’t do abort.” I was a father again? I needed to sit down for moment. I sat closest chair where I can sit down. “I’m sorry I didn’t tell you earlier, but I kind of promised to you that I don’t want to see you never again. When I get Bridie…” I didn’t let her finish her clause. “Just stop. Okay. This is so much for me now.” I stood up and looked at her. “You should tell me about her! I don’t fucking care that you won’t talk to me, but Jesus Mary! She’s my daughter and she don’t know who is her father! I won’t ever forgive you this. I’m going to take this to court! Believe it or not…  I will win for her to me.” And I just walked away from her to back outside very pissed off. I walked to far away from house to our own private lake and sat to dock. I just can’t believe she didn’t tell me I have a daughter. Was her name? Bridie? I guess that was it. This is terrible. And I thought all is going to be good, but I was wrong. She took my kid away from me and now she tells me about it. This is just wrong. I took view rocks and throw them to water. “Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaargh!” I yelled hard as I can up to the sky. It was only thing I can do now. “God! Why?! Why did you do this to me?! Did I do something wrong?!” Yes I was talking to God who never answered back to me. I missed her and she’s still with that jerk. Son of bitch, McCartney!