Nick Carter Fan Fiction: Forbidden Love 42

Chapter 42

Mary and Jesse were now official break up and Jesse didn’t want to be no longer with her. Well Jesse didn’t have another choice. They are going to have a son together. Jesse promised to Mary to take him sometimes to his place at weekends when he’s getting little bit bigger. Mary was sitting on the bathroom crying when water was running same time. She couldn’t believe that 5 years ended just like that. Her heart was so broken and throat hurts of crying. She couldn’t take it any much longer. She began to find something very sharp to cut her wrists. It makes her pain even cutting herself, but it’s not hurting much more than crying and missing Jesse. She finds razor and sat to toilet seat to think. She closed her eyes and cut her left wrist and then suddenly stops crying. She cut her right wrists too and then falls to floor against the wall. She lost her man she truly loves deeply. Blood fall to floor and moves other side behind the bathroom. Tina was sitting outside watching TV on the 2^nd floor and wonder that Mary was there already 1 hour. She walks to bathroom door and suddenly slips to something. She looks at to floor and sees blood. “Mary!? Open up!” Tina hit the bathroom door shouting. Aaron walks out of his room and so are others. “What is going on?” Aaron asked and looks at Tina. “Look at to floor, Aaron. How did it make you look like?” Tina was still shouting and tries to open the bathroom door. Everybody looks at the floor and sees blood. “No!” Hannah shouts and began to cry when she falls down to floor. Hayden tries to calm her. “Would someone open that door?!” he yelled to everyone. Kevin walks to bathroom and tries door. “Mary? Open the door. Now.” Kevin talked to Mary. There wasn’t respond. Kevin looks at Aaron. “You like so much climbing. Go outside to climb to wall to window.” he looks at Aaron and Aaron only nods and is gone. “And someone run to lake to tell Nick.” Kevin said and tries to open still door. “I’m on it!” Leslie shouts and left to run to lake. Hannah was still crying so much and her eyes were read. Hayden tried to calm her as possible he could. Aaron looks at the wall outside and began to try climbing. He climbs to bathrooms balcony and looks inside and sees Mary’s body on blood. “Kevin! I can’t get in! Can you hear me!?” he shouted behind the balcony door to Kevin who was inside behind the bathroom door. “Yes. Break the glass!” Kevin shouts back to him. Aaron covers his eyes and hits door glass with flowerpot.

Leslie runs to lake and shouts. “Nicholas!” Nick was sitting on terrace listen some music and hears someone shouting his name. He stands up and looks at to woods seeing Leslie. He removes headphones and looks at Leslie who is running like someone is running after her. “Leslie? What’s wrong?” Leslie stops near to Nick and gasp her breath cause of running so fast. “Mary… Bathroom…” Points to mansion way. Nick is confused. “Leslie what is it? I don’t understand you.” Leslie takes deep breath and then shouts to Nick. “Mary had cut herself with razor and is locked inside of the bathroom!” “SHE’S WHAT?!” And that second Nick drops his iPod and runs to mansion as fast he could. Leslie runs right behind Nick and is hoping that everyone had get her out.

Hannah Christensen

Aaron opens door to Kevin and walks to Mary. “Mary? Come on. Wake up.” Aaron laps her face so hard that she must respond but nothing. Kevin walks inside to and tries Mary’s pulse. “No pulse. Damn. We need to revitalize her, Aaron. You do a mouth and I do pushes. Got it?” Aaron nods and does it as he was told. Nick walks to upstairs and moves everyone away from door and looks at to bathroom. He sees Mary to laying down on the floor without movement. “I got no pulse.” Aaron said and looks at Kevin and then sees Nick standing near. “What? No…” Nick said and walks to bathroom and start to give her revitalize. Kevin helps Nick, but no respond. Others are crying or look so sad. “I can’t watch this. I need some air.” Nina said and runs downstairs. Fatone walks after her. Tina directs the site administrators. Nurse touch Nick’s hand. “Sir. We take from her now. Move please.” Nick moves away and let’s nurses to do their job and looks at next to them what is going on. “Please. You got a save her. She can’t die.” Nick said sad, but wasn’t crying. He was crying inside and didn’t want to let other to know. Kevin stands next to Nick and hugs him brotherly. “It’s okay Nick. She’s strong. She will make it.” Kevin tries to call him. Nick is just watching Mary when nurses are trying to save her. “Clear!” other shouts and there was beeping. “What’s that?” Nick asked and another nurse looks up to Nick. “We got a pulse. We need to move her to ambulance now.” Nick sighs of relief and so are others too. Hannah walks to bathroom. “She’s alive?” She asked voice hoarse. Nurses nods to Hannah and moves her to stretcher. Hannah touch Mary’s hand before nurses moves her to outside to ambulance. “I need to be with my sister. I’ll come with her.” Hannah follows to ambulance. Nick is standing on the balcony and looks when ambulance is driving away from the mansion. Brian walks to balcony and sighs. “How you doing, Frack?” Nick heard Brian’s voice and turns his head to him and looks very sad. “Not good, Frick. Not good at all.” Brian walks closer to Nick and hugs her friendly. “I’m so sorry bro. I know how much you love her. She’s going to be fine. When she wakes up, she’s going to be faithfully for you. You helped her back.” Nick start to suddenly crying. “She’s everything to me, Brian. I don’t know what to do if I lose her.” Brian looks at Nick. “Let’s go to hospital see her. Wan that?” Nick only nod and walks back inside. Brian and Nick looks at to bathroom door and sees Bridie standing there looking at to floor where is still so much blood. Nick walks to Bridie and takes her to his arms. “No Bridie. Don’t look down there. Let’s go play outside, okay?” Nick looked at to Bridie who looks at him with her big blue eyes. “Bridie, sweety. I know you can talk so… Say something.” Nick said and smiles to Bridie. “Where’s mommy?” she asked very small soft voice. Nick felt his throat start to ache about thinking where she is. “She’s at the hospital. Do you know what is hospital?” Nick asked and Bridie only shake her head. “Well hospital is a place where they are fixing people. And your mom is not doing very good right now. She needs to be there for while. And that time I will look after you. Would you like that idea?” Nick asked and Bridie shyly nods. Nick smiles to Bridie and gives kiss to cheek. “Good. I was hoping you would.” Bridie suddenly hugs Nick and ask. “Would you be my daddy?” Nick smiles and put her down to floor and goes to her level. “I would love to and you know what? I am your father.” Nick said and looks at her. “You are?” Bridie ask. Nick nods. “Yes I am sweety. And now we are going to make some pancakes and going to hospital and give mommy some too.” Bridie looked very exciting about the idea and runs to kitchen shouting.”Pancakes! Yay!” Nick laughs and walks after her to kitchen.

At hospital in 4 hours waiting Mary began open her eyes weakly. She sees someone but not very clearly. “Mary? You hear me? It’s your sister Hannah here.” Mary closed her eyes and opened them again. “Where I am?” she asked weakly. “At the hospital.” Hannah said and touched Mary’s hand. “Oh my poor little sister. What were you thinking to take your life like that? You almost died.” she sounded so sad and confused what Mary was thinking. “I was thinking Jesse. I was so sad and I needed to take that pain away.” Mary said very hoarse voice. “To take pain away with another pain? Oh sister.” she gives small kiss to her forehead. “Where’s Bridie?” Mary asked and looked around. “She’s hallway with Nick. Want me to invite them in?” Hannah asked and looked at to Mary. Mary looks at to her sister. “Nick’s here?” Mary questioned. Hannah nods and smiles. “He was so worried about you. He even give you revitalize to get you back here with us.” Mary sighs and lick her lower lip cause mouth is so dry. “Can I have some water?” Hannah nods and gives water to Mary. “So can I ask them in?” Hannah asked. “Only Bridie please. I don’t want to see him.” Mary gives mug back to her sister. “But he saved your life.” Hannah looked at to her sister. “Please. Bridie doesn’t know about that Nick is her father.” Hannah isn’t looking at Mary and sat down on chair. “What?” Mary asked and looked at to her sister. “Bridie knows. Nick told her.” Hannah looks at her sister who looks so pissed. “What?! That son of bitch.” She start to get up off the bed, but Hannah stops her. “Where are you going?” Mary looks at her sister. “To killing myself.” Hannah looks at her sister. “Please stop that. Come on. Go back lay down on to bed.” Mari sighs and lay down back. “Fine. Let her only come.” Hannah walks hallway and says that Mary only want to see Bridie. “I want daddy to come too.” Bridie said and Nick goes to her level. “I’m right here waiting. If mommy doesn’t want to see me then that’s fine. You go and give her those pancakes. Say to her that they are made from love.” *Smiles to Bridie who smiles to back to him. “Okay daddy.” Bridie says and walks to inside to see her mommy. “Oh sweetheart. Come here.” *Lift Bridie to bed. “What you got there?” Mary asked and looks at the box. “Daddy and I made pancakes for you. They are made from love.” Bridie said and smiles to mommy. “Oh sweety. Thank you.” *Gives kiss to her cheek and smiles. “Do you like daddy? Has he been nice to you?” Mary asked and looked at to her daughter. “Yes mommy. Daddy is funny. He blew to flour bag and his face was all white.” Bridie said and start to laugh. Mary smiles and hugs t Bridie. “That’s your daddy alright. Goofyn around.” Mary looks to hall way from window and sees Nick to standing there looking at her and Bridie. Nick waves his hand and smiles. Mary smiles back to him and hold Bridie tight against to her chest. “Can daddy come inside. he looks so lonely out there.” Bridie said and looks at to hallway. Mary looks at Bridie and smiles. “Sure. Go get him.” Let Bridie down off the bed carefully. Bridie walks to hallway and pull Nick to room. “Come daddy.” Bridie climb to bed again and looks at her parents. Nick stands further away from Mary. “Hi. How you are feeling?” he asked and looks at Mary. “I’m good. Thank you saving my life. Hannah told me that you saved me.” Mary said and looks at to Nick. “Actually… Your sister is lying. I did not save you.” Nick said and walks closer. “She said you gave me revitalize.” Mary looks at to Nick. Nick looks at to hallway and Hannah is only smiling to them. “Well yeah I did, but I didn’t get your pulse back.” Put his look back on her. Mary looks at to hallway and is confused. “Why my sister would say something like that?” she asked and Nick sat down to chair. “There could be many reasons.” Mary looks at to Bridie. 

Bridie Sofia Carter

“Bridie darling. Can I speak with daddy for moment alone? Go to Aunt Hannah for moment.” Bridie nods and gives kiss to both and walks out of the room. “She’s amazing. We made a great kid. I know now everything about her. She can’t stop talking.” Nick said and smiles to Mary. “I know she is. She’s my sweet parrot.” Mary said and smiles. “So… Why did you do it?” Nick asked. Mary sigs and doesn’t look at him. “Please don’t. It’s past now.” Nick stand up and moves closer to her. “Cause what Jesse did?” Nick asked. Mary doesn’t still look at him and looks down to her stomach. “What if cause of that?” Mary asked and touched her stomach. “You almost killed Mike. You are so stupid.” Nick said and looks at Mary. “Please look at me.” Mary shakes her head. “No.” Nick sighs and looks down to his feet. “Fine. I’m just trying to friendly here and you are acting as I’m some kind of dickhead.” Mary moves her head to looks at to him who is now looking down to his feet and looks very sad. Mary sees Nick hand on her bed and touch it gently. “I’m sorry. You are not dickhead. I am.” Nick lift his head up at to see her looking at him. “Yes you are. I wouldn’t know what to do without you.” Nick said and moves chair to closer bed to sit on near by her. Mary looks at Nick. “I shouldn’t come to USA.” Mary said with hoarse voice. “Don’t say that. I’m glad you did. I can’t stop thinking of you. Please move back here.” Nick said and looks at to Mary to her blue eyes. “Nick… Don’t.” Mary began to talk, but Nick stops her talks by kissing her gently. “Please think of it. I still love you so much and I want to spent rest of my life with you and Bridie.” He said and he kissed her one more time and walked out of the room to hallway. Mary touched her lips and is not moving. She knows those kisses for real and words he said sounded so real. Did he meant about everything he said? Mary looks at to hallway and sees Nick and Hannah talking about something. Hannah nods and hugs Nick. Then Nick hugs Bridie and let her down. And after that he walks away from them. Mary gets off the bed and walks slowly to door and open it. “Nick!” Hannah walks to Mary and holds her standing better. Nick turns around and sees Mary on her feet. Mary smiles to Nick. “I never stop loving you!” She shouted at him to other side of hallway. Nick runs back to Mary as smiling and kisses her deeply. “I love you, Mary.” Nick said and holds her. Mary smiles and is hugging Nick tightly. “And I love you, Nick. Forgive me.”

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**Nick's view**

She kissed me? I felt her lips on my lower lip and I just start to kiss her back. I move my hand to her hips and start to move her with me to bed what was in the bedroom. She followed me still kissing me and she touched me under my shirt. Oh yes touch me baby. I put my hand to her cheek and kissed her passionate and move her to bed to lay down. I move on her and touch her breasts. She gasp her breath and felt my touch. Remove her dress and touch her stomach and kissed gently. She close her eyes and was enjoying. It felt like it's been while when she was having sex. I know my trick would work to get her here. I remove my shirt off and and move to next to her. She couldn't stop touching me. She touched my six back and pull me on my back. She was on me now. She gently touched my stomach and smiled. “You have working out. Looks very hot.” I didn't say anything. Just laying down watching her. She moves her hand to my short and remove it away. She throw them away somewhere, but I didn't look where. I was just looking at her. She was so beautiful. She had dye her hair to blonde. I like it, but she was more beautiful as Brunette. I was not totally naked and she was only wearing... I looked down on her and look what she was wearing. Thongs? She was wearing thongs? Damn that was hot as hell. “What?” She asked and looked at me. “You are wearing thongs. When we use to date, you never wear thongs.” I winked at to her and rub her back gently. She smiled at me and bend down to kiss me. I was about to move her things away and then suddenly I her him. “Mary?! Are you here?! Bridie needs you!” It was Jesse. Just perfect timing! “That's Jesse. I have to go.” She moves carefully off the bed and takes her dress. “No... Door is locked. He won't get in.” I whispered to her. She looks at me and is dressing up. “I'm very sorry.” She then walked out of the room. I was just laying down on bed naked. And I was so close to have her. Damn it. I heard her to talk with Jesse outside in terrace. I fast stand up and put my short and t-shirt on. “Don't lie to me, Mary. You had sex with him. Did you?” Oh god. He was really pissed me off. I walked to kitchen and I was acting like I was cooking or something. Jesse suddenly walks in and looks at me. “You! What did you do to her?” Mary walked inside right after him. I looked back at him. “Nothing. I'm just cooking. We talked about Bridie. I can take her in my host 2 times in month at weekends. And then she said she was getting hungry so I thought why not to cook.” I lie to him and that was very good lie I ever made. Jesse looks at Mary. “You hungry, babe?” Mary nods and looks bit scared. “We then eat. How can I help, Nick?” Jesse asked and washed his hands. “It's just salad with rice. This is fast done.” I then took kettle from cabinet. “Okay. I need to use bathroom.” Jesse said and I pointed at second door next to bedroom. Jesse walked to bathroom and I then looked at Mary. She walks closer to me and whispers. “That can't never happen again, Nick. I'm getting married.” I looked at her. “You kissed me back. You still have feelings for me.” I whispered her and touched her hand. She moves her hand away from my hand. “Just let's eat and then Jesse and I are getting back to mansion.” She walked to inside to terrace. I sighed an hoped that Jesse wouldn't come and find her here. I must think someone in the mansion has told him where Mary was. I had only thing to do is cooking. Cooking for 3. To me, Mary and Jesse. Oh and of course to baby inside of her stomach. Great. I was so wanted her, but damn Jesse needed to ruin everything of course. He walks out of the bathroom and looks around. “Where did she go?” I looked outside from the kitchen window. “Sitting on terrace. She looks very sad. You should go to comfort her. She's been very upset.” I looked at him and he looked pissed. “Upset of what? That I haven't sex with her in 6 months?” They haven't had sex in 6 months. What was wrong with this guy? Every women needs love no matter how they look like. “Upset her mother. She misses her.” And then I continued cooking. Jesse walked to terrace and I can hear them talking. He sounded calming her down and saying that everything is going to be okay and her mom will watching her. I couldn't still believe that Jesse haven't make love to her in 6 months. No wonder Mary was in mood just 5 minutes ago. I had done salad and carry some plates and cooking equipment to terrace table. “Tell me something Nick. Do you still love Mary?” Jesse asked suddenly when I was set the table. “Please Jesse. Would you just let it go. Nothing didn't happened.” Mary said. I looked at to both of them. “Honestly. I still do. I have past these 5 years when I leave her cause I haven't offered her marriage. I was so stupid to let her go. Is that the answer you are looking for, Jesse?” I looked at to Jesse who looked speechless. “Well yes. Thanks for being honest.” I walked back inside and I heard them arguing about something. “Jesse don't go. Let's eat.” Mary said and I looked from the living-room window that Jesse was walking away from house to mansion. What they were talking about? Mary walked inside and looked at me. “Are you happy now? He dump me. There's no wedding next year.” I looked at her and I didn't know what to say. “I should go after him and talk with him.” She then walked out and walked after Jesse back to mansion. There's no wedding? Jesse dumped her? This was really happening. I got a chance now to get her to myself. I took plate and put on it some rice and salad. Well salad is good. And so is thing around here again. Mary was free meat and I was ready to take a chance and bite her. Well not for real. But why Jesse dumped her? I would fight for her if I would be him. I walked back to terrace and sat down to chair and ate my salad. It was very good. It was quiet in here. I took 5 minutes and someone drive with motorcycle. I stand up and looked at to forest. It was Aaron. Just great. I wanted to be alone and now everybody comes here to interrupt me. Aaron hit the breaks and shut the engine. “Hey bro. What's up?” He get off the on it and take his helmet off. “Nothing much. Fighting with Jesse and Mary.” Aaron walks to terrace and looks at me. “Is it true that you still love Mary?” Aaron sit on chair and looks at salad and start to eat is from his own plate. “Yes. It is. And I told Jesse the truth. He wanted to hear it.” I looked at Aaron who was eating like a pig. “Good you do, Nick. I just heard they are not getting married. Just wanted to come and tell you.” He just keep eating salad. “I know they did Aaron. They broke up right this terrace. I heard everything. Well not everything, but they were talking, arguing.” I looked at to Aaron. Aaron stops eating and looks at me. “You knew? Oh god. Why I need to be last to know about everything?” I laughed and pat his shoulder. “Come on now. Not about everything.” Aaron lift his head and looks at me. “Okay here view examples. You and Mary broke up. I knew that last. Hannah and Hayden getting married. I knew that last. I'm going to be father. Last to know.” What? I looked at Aaron surprised. “What? You going to be dad?” I questioned and he claps his hands together. “Oh you should see your face man.” Aaron started to laugh hard and walked to his bike. “That wasn't funny Aaron! You know that!” I laughed at him and throw pillow to him from couch what was in terrace. Aaron laughs and throws it back. “You would be great uncle, Nick. I'm sure Leslie is going to be first. She's pregnant, you know.” I smiled at to him. “Yeah I knew that.” He looks at me. !What? See I'm always the last about knowing things. Okay bro. I'm off. See you later.” He start the engine and drove of with his bike to woods. I only laughed and sat back to couch. Poor Aaron. He really knows everything as last. I stand up and took all dishes to inside. I couldn't stop smiling, cause what almost happened between me and Mary today. It would be best way to start to date again. Oh I missed her touches already. This was torture. Where was she? Was she with Jesse right now? Well if she was then I can only imagine them fighting and Jesse hitting her to face. Oh I don't think he's like that. Or is he? I was start to think while I was putting dishes to to dishwasher. If I can find any bruise of her, I'm gonna kill that guy. And not having sex with her in 6 months? That's just crazy. I haven't be without sex that long. I get laid 4 nights ago with this very gorgeous woman I met in the bar. She was wasted and I wasn't so. No big deal. She left me a number when she left next morning but I throw it away cause I didn't want to do her again. I love Mary. I'm going to get her back no matter what. We will get married and having some more children. Only thing I need to do is now realize that I'm the only guy she loves. Forever.

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Chapter 41 

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**Mary's view**

I stand there for moment and looked that Nick left very pissed off. Oh I had it enough with him. I walked after him. Didn't care what other thought. I have to talk to him to not take this to court. I asked from Bob where did Nick went. He pointed to forest where was foot bath to somewhere. I thanked him and walked to forest. Couldn't run with this big stomach. It take maybe 1 minute to walk that bath and I saw this cute small house. I looked at for second. It was very cute. I was light blue. Windows frames were white. Reminds me of summerhouse. I looked inside to from window, but it was no one in there. I walked to front door what was other side of the house. I tried to door, but it was locked. I looked around and there he was. Sitting docks edge, feet into water. I looked very pissed and so was I. I walked closer very quietly and tried to be calm. He then suddenly turns around and sees me. I guess he heard me walking. Damn this weight. If I can get my own weight back he wouldn't hear me walking. “Just leave me alone.” And he put his look back to water. I stopped walking and looked at dock. “Please come here so we can talk. I can't come with this stomach there.” I tried to joke for bit but he didn't laugh or smile. He turn his head to look at me. “I can hear you from here just fine. What you want?” And then he looked back to water. “Please Nick. Don't take her away from me. She's everything to me.” I looked at him and he took deep breath. “What else I can do? You never called and tell me about her. “ Okay... I needed to be near by him. I took first step carefully to dock and then he turns around to look at me. “What are you doing? You hurt yourself here.” He stood up and looked at me. I stopped walking and put my hand crossed each other against to my chest. “So you do care. Why don't you talk to me like adult? Or you'll be over there.” I pointed at lake. He lift his eye browns up and looks at me. “You are not strong enough to do that.” I smiled devil look and walked closer to him. He looks to his feet and sees that dock is going down and water is getting up. “Don't. Stop. Okay. I'm coming.” And he walks away from dock. “I knew that will work.” I smiled for bit and walked to terrace for sit to chair. Nick sat to another chair and looks at me. “How far are you?” he points at to my stomach. I looked down to my stomach and touch it gently. “8 months and 2 weeks. So labor is soon. I hope I won't labor in the wedding.” I looked at to Nick and smiled. He smiled for bit. He moves closer to me and is rest on to his knees with his both elbows. “I'm very sorry. I know I hurt you. And very badly.” He then looks at up to me. I looked down to him and smiled. “That's kinda of too late now, Carter. You are too late for ask forgiveness.” He moved back and rest on chair now and looks at me. “I know. I just thought you might forgive me. You kind of did in my dream. I see dreams about you a lot lately. I think those means something.” I smiled and looked at him. “It's only a dream Nick. Those are not real.” I told him and he stands up and moves to edge of to handrail and rest on it with his hands. “I still love you. I can't live without you. I shouldn't let you go with him. But I did. This all is my fault.” I stand up and walked closer to him. “It is your fault. You didn't want to get married. And you said never. I still remember that Nick.” He close his eyes and is now resting on to handrail with elbows and put his hands to his eyes to not cry. “I know I said that. I was fucking 24. Now that I'm older, I can't stop thinking of marriage. I want to get married. Stupid I know.” He took deep breath and stand up straight. “How tall are you?” I looked up to Nick, who was so tall. “189cm. Why?” He lift himself to on the handrail sitting and looks at me. “Nothing. You are very tall. Taller when I saw you last time.” He grinned and smiled. “Are we here talking about how tall I am or about Bridie?” I have to smile for that. I was nervous to be around him. No wonder. He looked so sexy and his body. Did he have six back under his shirt? I might gonna see it soon if he goes to pool or just taking a sun. “Mary? You with me?” I was in my thoughts and Nick snapped his fingers to wake me up. “Sorry. Yeah... We are here talking about Bridie.” I said and sat to nearest chair to look at him while we are talking. “What were you thinking? You were quiet like 10 seconds.” he said and looked at me smiling. “Nothing. Just let it go. It was nothing.” I didn't look at him. He was too sexy to be true. “Come on. You can't even look at me. You were thinking of me, right?” He was still looking at me and I can see he was smiling like he was enjoying this. I looked up to him. “No I wasn't thinking of you. Like I said. It's nothing.” He fall down off the handrail and moves closer to me and is resting his hands to chairs handrail where I'm sitting on and looks at me to my eyes. “You are lying. I know when you are lying. You are panicking now cause I'm this close to you. You might thinking how good I look. And now you are might thinking. “What was I thinking to let him go? He's so handsome.” And yes dear. I have six back if you wonder what. So please. Tell me the truth. If you lie to me one more time. I'll kiss you.” I looked at to him to his eyes and I gulped. This wasn't happening. I was panicking alright. He was handsome as hell. And he was right about everything. Think Mary think! “So? What was you thinking?” he asked very calm and moves closer and closer to my lips. “My mom.” I said and he moves further back. “Your mom?” he looks me into my eyes and start to read me. “Yes. I just figure that my mom is dead and she have no chance to meet her grandchildren. I feel so sad about it.” I hope that will work. Nick knows how much I miss my mom cause she past away 5 weeks ago before I even knew Nick. He moves away from me and rest on to handrail with his back. “Sorry. I know how much you miss your mom. I shouldn't be so rude. And it's not my place to know what are you thinking. I'm sorry.” Wow... That really worked. I'm proud of myself. Sorry mom that I use you for excuse. “Well if she would be still alive she's your child grandmother. And I know how much you would like her. She believed on God. Me another hand. Not so much.” He looks at me and looks very mystery. “One thing what keeps me wondering.” He walks back and forth on terrace in front of me. “What's that, Nick?” I looked at him when he was walking. He stops and looks at me. “Did you really went to back to Finland?” He took that up. “Yes. Jesse moved there with me. We are living there.” I looked seriously at him. “Jesse? In Finland?” he started to laugh. I stand up and punch him to shoulder. “Don't you dare to laugh. He's doing good in there. He is learning Finnish. You another hand are not so helpful.” He looks at me and stops laughing. “Ouch. That hurt.” He touches his shoulder. “Don't be such an baby.” He goes down to his knees and takes something under mat. “Wanna see inside?” He shows me a key as smiling. “You know someone could robber this place if they would know that key is right under their feet.” I looked at to him. He opens the door and put lights on. “I build this with Brian and Alex. Very cool huh?” He walks to kitchen what was in the same room with living-room. House was very beautiful. “it is cool. So who pick up the colors?” I sat on the couch. Oh it was very comfortable. “I did. This is my place where I sleep at night sometimes when I wanna be alone.” He was doing something in the kitchen. “What are you doing in there?” He only laughed and then he comes back with two glasses and bottle of... champagne? “Want some wine?” He asked and shows a bottle of wine. “I can't drink Nick. I'm pregnant.” I looked at him. “Don't worry. It's non-alcohol.” He pour to both glass some wine and handed to me another one. I was unsure first, but I took a glass. “Okay. 1 glass.” he smiles and sat to coffee table and looks at me and holds his glass on his hands. “Tell me what you want.” I took a zip of the wine and looks at to Nick. “I don't want you to take this to court. Bridie is 4 years old. She's going to be sad if you take her away from me.” He looks at me to my eyes and smiles for bit. “Why didn't you tell me I have a daughter? And don't tell me cause you promise not to talk to me. Give me very good reason.” He didn't shout at me so I had a chance to think for moment. “Well I wasn't first sure was she yours. I found out last year that she is. And I was already engaged with Jesse.” He stops me and looks at me. “What? You are what?” He looked very surprised and same time chocked. “I'm engaged with Jesse. We are getting married next year.” He stand up and feels upset. “And I thought I have a chance to get you back.” he turns around to look at me. “How could you do this to me? Getting married with a guy who I hate.” he looked disgusting on his face. I stood up and throw the glass to wall. “Fuck you! I loved you, but I had to do what I had to do. He will makes me happy. And now you are telling me that you want to get married! Is too late Nick! I'm going to marry him and you won't stop me!” I yelled at him and walked to front door. “We are not finished here!” he walks to between me and door. “We are! Now please let me go back to my fiancé!” I looked at him angry. “No! We need to talk about this! I can't let you marry him! Over my dead body!” he yelled at me and was just standing in front of door to not let me go. “Fine!” I yelled at him and took golf club to my hands. “Now move or I swear god I'll kill you!” I threatened him with golf club. “With that?” He asked and pointed at golf club. I looked what I have in my hand and then suddenly he took it away from my hands very fast. Oh he didn't! “Let me go! Help!” I yelled hard I could and then Nick shut my mouth. “Don't yell. I don't wanna hurt you. Okay? I just can't you to marrying him. I love you, Mary.” He looked at me to my eyes and I tried to get off him, but he was strong. He had work out! “I let my hand away from your mouth easily. Don't scream okay?” I nod for him and start to calm down. He let go his hand away from my mouth and step aside. “See? Didn't hurt you.” I saw umbrella near by and moved closer to it still looking at to him. “Well... You didn't but I will.” I took umbrella and hit with it to Nick to stomach. He fall down to his knees and then against to wall to lay down. “Oh god that hurt! Why did you do that?” I looked at him. “Cause you won't let me go and I want to be with my fiancé. You can't stop me to marrying him. Stay away from me and Jesse.” I said and walked to door. “Stop! If you go, I definitely take this to court and told the judge about what did you do. And you going to lose her for good.” I was about to open the door, but what he just said stopped me to go. I looked at to him and he was still on the floor in pain. “You have to let me go, Nick. I don't love you anymore. It's over.” He get up weakly and walks closer to me very slow. “Just... Don't go yet. I just wanna be near you. Feel your hands around me. Kiss you. Touch you. Hold you. Marry you.” I looked at to him and I was choked. I was about to go married next year with Jesse and he ask me to marry him? “Marry you? Nick... I said I don't love you. You left me to that room alone.” And then suddenly he kisses me very passionate. And touch me gently from my cheek with both hands. “I love you. We can work this. Please. I beg you.” I lick my lower lip and still taste his kisses on it. I so missed those kisses. I touch gently Nicks hand and looks at him. “No... We can't Nick.” He shake his head and hold me tight around his arms. “Don't say that. Yes we can. I love you too much. I can't let you go. Don't go. I will die inside if you are not around me. I won't be happy without you. I never had love someone like this before.” Oh no. My body was giving up any minute now. I so wanted to kiss him and touch his body. His body was HOT! I couldn't help it, but I lift my head up for bit and kiss his lower lip for bit. He react it and start to kiss me back. He touch me from my hips slowly. Was I really going to cheat on Jesse? I haven't had sex in 6 months! And I was in mood!

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Chapter 40

**Nick's View**

It’s been 5 years when I saw her last time. It’s now July’s 30^th 2009 and she’s now what 20 years old. We had moved to bigger house. There was 5 levels and everyone had own rooms. Hannah’s, Nina’s and Tina’s view friends are here too. Their names are Anna, Sidney and Heidi. Other Backstreet guys moved here too with their wifes and girlfriends. Good to have them around here. Hannah and Hayden are getting married this weekend and all was so mess up. I’m Hayden’s best men. Glad I can help for him. I knew I’m going to see Mary today. She wouldn’t ever miss her sister’s wedding. At the moment I’m not dating anyone. Thing didn’t go very well with Mariah. I started my live the better. I almost die last year by using drugs and alcohol. I guess I was missing her so much. Wondering was she still with Jesse? I so hoped she would be single. Door bell ring and Hannah ran fast she could to front door and screamed loud. “Oh my god! You are here! Oh gosh I missed you so much! How did you find here?” I heard her screaming and laughing. And then I heard familiar voice. It was her. “Hey. Well it was very difficult. Good to be back. I need to go pee. I have hold it so long.” I wanted to look to front door, but I just couldn’t look. “Yeah. Walk thought the living-room and then right. There’s some guys living-room. They can tell you the way.” I heard them talking and I heard Hannah to say Living-room. I was in the living-room. I stoop up of the couch and was going to walk backyard door, but then I heard her saying something. “Excuse me… Where’s bathroom?” She must be asking that from me. I didn’t turn around and I just pointed at to right side to door and walked outside. I walked to grill where dad was grilling and sat to chair. “She’s here, dad. I’m nervous.” Bob looked inside and then back to me. “She is? Where did she go?”he asked and was just grilling. “She went to Bathroom. She asked that from me and I pointed at to her.” “How did she look like? Did she look good?” I looked up to my dad. “I didn’t look . She only saw me from back.” I fall to chair and drank my beer. Suddenly I hear some kids laughing outside. I looked at to child and it was this little girl who had blonde hair and green dress. I looked at my dad. “Did she…?” Bob lift his shoulders up. “I don’t know. Maybe she did.” I sighed and fall down back to chair. Then I heard her again with Hannah to walking outside. “Oh it’s so beautiful here. And house is so huge. So where we can sleep at weekend?” We? She was with someone? I looked at dad. “I can’t do this. I have to talk to Hayden and tell him how sorry I am. I can’t just be around her. It’s just too much.” Dad looked very surprised look on his face. “What?” I questioned. He points somewhere with his finger and I looked at where dad pointed his finger. Oh my god! Was she…? Can’t be!

**Mary’s view**

I sat down to garden chair and talked with my sister about wedding. “Oh flowers looks amazing. I’m so happy for you. You are going to be tomorrow Mrs. Christensen.” She was happy. I can totally tell. I looked around and start to think where was Nick. “Is Nick here or is he somewhere club drinking?” I looked at to my sister and Hannah pointed at to Nick with Bob. “He’s right there.” I looked at the way she pointed. Oh my god! Was that really him? Oh wow. He looks good and so sexy. “That’s Nick?” I was very choked and I looked at my sister. Hannah nods and smiles. “You should go talk to him. You two have daughter over there.” She pointed at my daughter Bridie. “Don’t point at her, please. I will tell him. he might be mad now why I didn’t tell him about Bridie. “And now you are pregnant to Jesse? Which one it is?” I looked at down to my stomach and touch it. “It’s a boy. We already decide a name for him. Mike.” I smiled to my sister. “So when you and Hayden are going to get some kids?” I was about to ask, but I felt someone’s hands around me and start to kiss my neck. “Here you are, babe. Are you running away from me?” I smiled and turn around to see Jesse. “No. I just came to see backyard. It’s so beautiful.” I kissed him gently and he smiled at to me. “Where’s Bridie? I found her something.” Shows soft toy what Bridie lost yesterday when we get to plane. “Oh you found it. She’s going to be so happy.” I stood up and hugged Jesse. Jesse laughs and hugs me. “I want to give it to her. So have you seen Nick?” He asked and I looked at him. “Yeah, but haven’t talk to him. He’s over there.” I pointed at to Nick who was now grilling while Bob was inside. Jesse looks at to Nick and waves to him. Nick waves back and just continues cooking. Jesse looks at me and smiles. “You should talk to him and tell him about Bridie.” I sat back down. “I will honey. Don’t you worry. You just go find Bridie.” I smiled to him and he gave me kiss before he left to find Bridie. I looked at back to my sister. “So I asked you a question.” She just smiles and was very mystery. “What? Are you?” I only asked and she nods smiling. “Oh my god!” I screamed so loud and start to hug her happily. “This is so great. I’m going to be aunt.” Hannah laughed to me and sighs. “Yes. It really is great. I never had been this happy. I love him so much. Oh I’m going to be nervous tomorrow.” I smiled to her. “You are just going to be fine.” I felt like I was needed to go bathroom again. “Oh god. I need to go bathroom again. Damn this child is killing me if he could have a chance.” I laughed and stood up. “Need help?” My sister asked and I only shake my head. “I’ll be fine. I’m right back.” I walked back to inside to bathroom. I looked at myself to mirror and I saw happiest woman in the world. I was finally engaged with Jesse and wedding is next year. And baby boy is on the way. I never thought baby comes first before wedding. I was finish by the bathroom and I open the bathroom door and Nick was behind it smiling. “Hey Mary. It’s been while.”

**Nick’s view**

She opened door and I looked at her smiling. “Hey Mary. It’s been while.” She looked at me and she got this wonder look on her face. “What you want?” She asked and I was just cool. “I just wanted to say hi. It’s been 5 years since we’ve been talking and here we are talking to each other.” She walked away from me to living-room and I followed her. “I can see you are still with Mr. McCartney. And made 1 kid and not other one is coming. Your dream did come true.” I looked at her she looked so beautiful even she was pregnant. And she was shining like a star. Pregnancy fits for her. She turns around to looking at me. “Seriously Nick. What you really want? Getting back together?” I started to laugh and I looked at her. “You are kidding me? You don’t want me back. You are with Jesse and you have very cute daughter out there and new on the way. I’m so happy for you guys.” I did fake smile and she notice it. “You don’t mean it. I recognize your fake smile.” she snapped at to me. “Alright. Fine. I’ll leave then.” I walked away from her to backyard door. “She’s yours, Nick.” She suddenly said and I freeze to door and start to think for moment and then I looked at to her. “What?” She walks closer to me and gulps. “She’s yours. Bridie is your daughter Nick. She’s 4 years old. I birth her when I was 15. I just couldn’t do abort.” I was a father again? I needed to sit down for moment. I sat closest chair where I can sit down. “I’m sorry I didn’t tell you earlier, but I kind of promised to you that I don’t want to see you never again. When I get Bridie…” I didn’t let her finish her clause. “Just stop. Okay. This is so much for me now.” I stood up and looked at her. “You should tell me about her! I don’t fucking care that you won’t talk to me, but Jesus Mary! She’s my daughter and she don’t know who is her father! I won’t ever forgive you this. I’m going to take this to court! Believe it or not…  I will win for her to me.” And I just walked away from her to back outside very pissed off. I walked to far away from house to our own private lake and sat to dock. I just can’t believe she didn’t tell me I have a daughter. Was her name? Bridie? I guess that was it. This is terrible. And I thought all is going to be good, but I was wrong. She took my kid away from me and now she tells me about it. This is just wrong. I took view rocks and throw them to water. “Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaargh!” I yelled hard as I can up to the sky. It was only thing I can do now. “God! Why?! Why did you do this to me?! Did I do something wrong?!” Yes I was talking to God who never answered back to me. I missed her and she’s still with that jerk. Son of bitch, McCartney!

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Chapter 39

**Mary’s view**

I walked to Jesse’s car and didn’t talk so much. It was hard to let go and move away from that place. I was going to sit inside of the car and then I hear him shout my name from front door. “Mary! Just wait!” I was looking at to Nick, but then Jesse walks to front of him and punch him to face. “You stay away from her!” He yelled at Nick. Nick fall down to ground and his nose was bleeding. “Son of… I just want talk to her. Just for minute.” Nick looked at Jesse and tried to stop bleeding from his nose. I walked behind Jesse and whispers to his ear. “Just sit inside car. I’m okay.” Jesse looks at me and then to Nick. “You keep your hands away from my girlfriend. You hear me, Carter?” I looked at Nick and he only nod. “Yeah… Whatever.” Jesse sat inside of the car and was watching us like starker. I looked at to Nick and smiled. “I’m very sorry. I really am. I don’t see future with you, Nick. Try to understand. I want to get married and Jesse can afford me that. You another hand… You don’t. You only think us as having fun and have kids without marriage. That is not me, Nick.” He looks at me sad and sighs. “Well I was hoping we can stay as friends. I really do.” I shake my head and move away from Nick. “No. We can’t. Just look after yourself. Okay? Say hi to Holly.” And then I get inside the can and I can see his face is so much sadness. Jesse drives away from yard and start to speed to road. I took deep breath and fall me head back. Jesse touches my hand and kiss it gently. “You are fine now. He’s not getting near you anymore.” I looked at Jesse and was chocked. “What the hell are you talking about? You punched him for no reason. He only wanted to talk to me. You don’t punch a human when he or she wants to talk.” I snapped at to Jesse. Jesse put his look back to street. “I’m sorry. I just hate what he did to you. I just wanted revenge I guess.” OH he was my hero. He saved me from devil. Well Nick is not so bad, but I like Jesse more. I looked at to him and smiles at him. “Well he kind of deserved it. Thank you.” I give kiss to his cheek and he turns to kiss my lips. I can only laugh and I moved away from back to my seat. “Keep your eyes back to road, silly. You don’t want us to die?” And he smiled to that and takes my hand one more time and kissed it. I was going to be happy with Jesse. I got that feeling. I trust it.

**Nick’s View.**

I walked to living-room and turn TV on. There was football, but I wasn’t so interested of it. I change the channel and there was coming cartoons Scooby-Doo. Oh that reminds me off Mary. I started to watch it and start to drink some beer same time. My dad’s bedroom door opens and I looked at to door. “Hey son. How are you doing?” He asked and sat next to me to couch. I lift my shoulders meaning that I’m not so sure. “Fine I guess. How about you, dad?” I looked at to him and he sighs. “It’s so weird that your mom is not round here. I can’t believe that she stole your money. She had done this once already and now you. I never shouldn’t let her to be Aaron’s manager.” He crossed his hands against his chest. “Dad you didn’t know. You loved mom. Now we know what kind of person she is. So don’t say it’s your fault, cause it’s not.” I told him what I was thinking of. He looked at me and smiled. “Thanks, son. What are you watching?” He pointed at to Scooby Doo on TV. “OH yeah. I was bored so. I wanted to watch some boring. Mary use to watch this with her friends.” I took sip on my beer and looked at to TV. “What really happened, Nicholas? Why she’s not with you?” oh no… He asked that question I didn’t want to answer. “Cause I don’t want to getting married. Not what happened to you and mom. That will happen to me. I know it will.” He looks at me and shake his head. “Oh Nicholas… What happened to me and mom is not meaning that it will happens for you. You decide what you do. People get divorce all the time and I’m sorry it happened to us.” he looked at me and he was very sorry. “I’m sorry dad. I really am, but I just don’t believe in marriage.” I looked at to my dad and he looks at me back. “So you two stop dating cause she want to get married and you don’t?” I only nod and put my look back to TV. “She’s happy now with Jesse. That’s all the matters. I won’t ever get her back.” I drank my beer again and put empty bottle to coffee table. He looks at the bottle and sighs. “And alcohol solves all your problems?” He looked at me very worried. “Dad I’m fucking 24 years old. I’m too young to get married and so is she. She’s freaking 13… No she just turns into 14.” I snapped at him and looked at him. “I know, son. I know. Chill out. You got tour coming up. You should pack your stuff.” He then stood up and walked to kitchen. I guess he right. Maybe tour helps me to move on. I shut off the TV and walked to upstairs to get rest of my stuff. I took my bag on my bed and I heard paper voice and I looked around to see piece of paper on the floor. I let down to bags on the floor and grab the paper. I recognize handwriting. It was from Mary.

“Hi Nick

I know it’s hard to let me go, but you have to. We want different things. I want to get married and have a family. You just want to be party boy. Have some kids maybe without marriage. Good luck with that. I guess Mariah would be perfect for you. I’m sorry this happened. I’m not really in love to Jesse. I’m planning to go back to Finland away from you. I can’t live like this near you. I think it’s just better us to be apart. I promise to come 1 of to your concert whenever you come to Finland. I had so much fun, but this is it. End to our road. End for us. Find someone who loves you the way you are. This is last time you ever heard from me ever again. God bless you and much of love.

Love, Mary

I read a letter and I can see that she was crying when she was writing this. There was ink mess on her name. It was hard to read what is says, but I know it’s from Mary. Her hand writing is so beautiful.  She was leaving back to Finland. That must be joke. I walked to Hannah’s room door and knock it hard. It took 5 seconds and she opens up. “What?” She looked pissed… Wondering why put to letter. “Mary left me this. She says she going back to Finland. Did she tell you about this?” I showed her a letter and she grab the letter and started to read it and then her mouth open wide. “Oh my God! Hayden… Mary left back to Finland.” Hayden? I looked at inside to her room and Hayden was laying down on bed. Didn’t want to know what he was doing with Hannah. Hayden stood up off the bed and comes to door. “What on earth? Oh hi Nick. I didn’t know you are here.” He looks at me and we hugged each other friendly. “Hey. I didn’t know you are here either.” We laughed and then Hannah looks at us. “Hello. Back to my sister.” I put my look back to Hannah. “Yes. So she hadn’t told you anything about leaving?” I questioned. She only shakes her head and walks back to her room and sit downs to her bed. Hayden sat next to her and holds her closer to him. Well they look very cute together. Glad I can help them. I put them together and I was kind of happy about it. Hayden has been single long time. He deserve to have girl like Hannah. I just stand there looking at them. “I only know that Jesse came here and took her with him. That’s only thing I know.” I said and looked at Hannah. “Thanks Nick. You are really nice guy, but so much an asshole. How dare you to leave her cause she want to get married. Every woman wants that.” I sighed and looked at her sorry look on my face. “I’m very sorry. She and I are different persons.” She moved closer to Hayden and I walked away from the room. 

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Chapter 38

**Nick’s view**

She really want to know? I wanna tell how sorry I am what I did. She was waiting  for me, tell her why I didn’t go date with Mariah. I looked at her and smiled to her. “Are you very sure?” I asked and she nod at me again. I smiled to her and walked closer to her, but she moves away. I stop walking and just looking at her. I sighed deeply.

“Fine. I didn’t go cause you weren’t. I hate that guy you are with. I want you to forgive me and start to be with me again.” I looked at her response and then she hit me to my face. “You son of bitch! How could you? You broke my heart! You left me!” She snapped at me. I know I left her, but now I know  that I wanna be with her. I so deeply wish that we can be from that day when I left her. Yes… That was yesterday.

“Say something! Don’t you have anything to say?!” She was still mad. Say something to her. “I love you.” I only said and she looks at me chocked. “So that’s it. You thought I could take you back like that and forgive you? No, no, no, no, no… I don’t want to be any part of your life no longer.” Did she really mean that? She must be joking. “What now?” I asked and she only looked around her room and start to thinking something. “Maybe I should move away from this house. I know Jesse would love to take me to live with him.” She looked at me and was very pissed. So this is it. I lost her for good? No… I can’t let her go. I love her too much. “Please. Just don’t go. I beg you. Stay here cause of your friends. I move out if you want that. I can live at my summerhouse.  Just don’t go.” I begged her and looked at her very sad. She thinks for moment and sighs. “No… I can’t be around you. I know this is your dad’s house. You will come here to see me and I don’t wanna see you. Ever again, Nick.”

And then she started to pack her stuff. She was really going away. And I won’t see her again? I walked away from her room and let her just be. Somehow I will get her. And maybe many years later, I might wanna get married. I’m 23 years old. How could someone get married in this age? Brian did. Well he wanted family so long. Baylee is great kid and Leighanne is lucky woman to have Brian. Howie, AJ and I are single guys. When on earth we are going to find those girls for us from out there? Well Emilia was my true love and I lost her. And that Emilia ghost… It felt so good. Thinking of Emilia, makes me start to thinking of her. Oh gosh. What is wrong with me? Just stop Nick. Emilia is gone and you had found your new true love and she’s going away from you, cause you were such an asshole. I sat down to hallways couch and took deep breath. I closed my eyes for moment and then there was touch to m lab. I open my eyes and there she was again. Emilia was smiling at me. I couldn’t say any word and she started to kiss me deeply. Oh god she was best kisser I ever known. Why she have to die? I touched her and she felt so real. Oh god. Don’t hit my face again when you did in my cars backseat. I kissed her deeper and she moaned. Oh yes. She liked it. She started to touch my crotch and my cock grows up fast. Was I really going to have sex with Emilia. It’s been 2 months when she past away. I moved her face to see her. God she was so beautiful. I touched her hair and pare skin. Oh she was softer than before. We didn’t talk at all. She just looked at me smiling. I smiled back at her and then she start to open my jeans. Was she going to…? Oh god. Yes! Do it! I have waiting this for long! She remove my jeans off and smiles at me only. We were still quiet? Maybe I was suppose to be quiet so she won’t go anywhere. She took my cock to her mouth and started to moan. Oh god yes. That felt so good even she’s dead. I wanna be dead too. I wanna so much to be with her. Being dead can’t be so bad, right? I looked down on her and she was sucking my cock hardly than ever. Damn. She never suck it like that. She had learn some new moves. I so enjoyed that. I lead my head back and enjoyed her. I then heard door opening somewhere and opened my eyes. I looked down on my and I couldn’t believe this! Was I masturbating ? I quickly took my pants back on me and stand up to see someone. I saw Mary. She was carrying her bags out of her room. Oh no. She was really leaving. I move closer to her and walked in front of her. “Let me help to carry those. It’s only thing I can do.” I was trying to be nice. “You stay away from her, Nick. I’m here to help her.” I heard Jesse’s voice behind me and I looked at her. “You invite him here?” I questioned from her and she didn’t answer and give her bags to Jesse. “Let’s go babe. You are going to be fine at my place now.” Jesse said and walked downstairs with Mary and I just stand there for doing nothing to stop her. Well I was this stupid. Now I only have Mariah. I should give her a try to be with me. I took my cell and called to Mariah. I told her how sorry I was about tonight. Well she was easy cake. She said she will be here soon so we can have some sex. She said she want to give me blowjob in the shower. Damn. She knew how to make me mood this time. I so wanted that. I was going to be fine with Mariah. I’m going to forgot about Mary and move on. She left and I didn’t have any choice to be with her ever again. The end for us. 

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Chapter 37

**Mary's view** 

Jesse McCartney

Time was almost 9 and then my cell rang. I pick it up and looked at the caller. It was Jesse. I answer it and was smiling. “Hey you. Are you soon here?” I questioned. “Hey... Well I'm sorry but I forgot I had work tonight. How about tomorrow?” He asked and I sat down to bed. “Oh yes... You told that earlier today. Well that's fine. Tomorrow sounds very good. 9Pm?” I questioned and started to undress my clothes off while still talking. “Yeah. I'm very sorry. Hope you are not mad or anything.” He was so sweet. Maybe Jesse and I are getting well. “OH don't worry babe. I'm fine. Just do what you must do. Talk to you soon.” We said good night and goodbyes to each other and I hung up the phone. I change my clothes to little bit for relaxing. I walked out of the room and sat down to couch and start to watch TV. I hear some giggles from Nick's room. I bet Mariah doesn't want to get married either so they are perfect to each other. I heard steps from the stairs and BJ walks upstairs Holly in her arms. I smiled to BJ and whispers to her. “Hey. Is she sleeping?” She looks at me and smiles. “Yes. Oh she's so sweet. She actually have nick's eyes, but Paris hair. I just hate that b-i-t-c-h. I'm actually glad Nick dump her.” Bj said it like she's been hating Paris forever. “Oh yeah? I had too. And I'm relive that he's not with her. And she can be jail forever. But she will be there forever.” I looked at Holly who was sucking her own thump. I stood up and walked closer to BJ. “May I? I can look after her rest of the night.” She handed her to me and looks at me. “Nick told me that you have date tonight.” I took Holly my arms and sat back to couch. “Yeah, but Jesse needed to do some work. We go tomorrow.” I looked up to BJ. “So what is wrong with my brother then?” BJ asked and sat to chair. I looked at her and smiled. “Well nothing, but he doesn't wanna get married. He wants kids but not married. Mariah in his room is just perfect to him.” I looked back down to Holly who was looking at me with her big blue beautiful eyes. I smiled to her and hold her tight to my chest. “He doesn't want what?” BJ surprised. I looked back to BJ and she looked surprised. “Yeah... He doesn't wanna get married. Ever. Not what just happened to your parents. And me another hand... I wanna get married. That's why Nick and I broke up.” I put my look back to Holly who was playing with my pendant what I was still wearing. “He's stupid to leave you cause of that. I thought you and him are perfect to each other.” BJ said and was little angry. I sigh and looked at to BJ. “Well now that I know nothing won't happen between me and Nick... I should go back to Finland.” And then I heard Nick's door open and Nick walked out with Mariah who was smiling so happy. “Oh look it's your daughter Holly. And your sister Leslie.” She said like she was on drugs. “That's BJ, babe.” Nick said smiling and looked at me and was bit surprised look on his face. “Isn't those little bit too comfy to go date?” He questioned and walked closer. “My date is tomorrow. Jesse couldn't make it. But you two have wonderful time.” I smiled friendly. Oh yeah right. I was hating to smile both of them. “OH we surely will. Right my sweet cupcake?” Mariah Asked and kissed him to lips with her tongue. Oh so gross. “yeah, yeah. Of course we will. And then we going to have after party at my summerhouse. Having some woohoo time.” he said and squeezed Mariah's ass. “Okay you two. Maybe you should go now. I need to put Holly to sleep.” I said and got up and walked to other guestroom. I just couldn't see Nick with that hooker. Jealousy definitely worked. I was definitely jealousy of her. I put Holly down to her cradle and smiled to her. “Nice and sweet dreams, Holly. We see you tomorrow morning.” I touched her fingers and she touched them with her small hands. OH she was so beautiful. I never had seen this beautiful as she is now. I do want one of these one day. I put next to her, her favorite soft toy. It was dolphin. Of course she was Nick's daughter. Both likes dolphins. I took deep breath and still looked at her. Hopefully Holly is not going to learn call me as mom these 5 years. It would be disaster. Well Who wouldn't be mother to this child. She was so beautiful and I wanted to hold her all the time. Was I falling to this child? Maybe calling me as mom wouldn't be so bad idea. But my age... I'm 13 years old and here I was... Taking good care of this baby girl. Would I be mother this young. 

Mary (Carrie Underwood)

I started to think and then there was small knock on the door. I turn to look there and saw my sister. She was dressed like she was going to date. Wow I never had seen this side of my sister. I smiled and walked to door. “Wow. Going or coming?” I questioned. She smiled and looked at her clothes. “Coming actually. I had a date with Hayden again. It was very romantic. He took me to this Italian restaurant. Food was so amazing. You should go there someday with Jesse. And after that we went to this club and we danced 3 hours row. Oh I'm so beat. And he brought me home and kissed me.” Hannah said and was smiling so much that I can see it hurts her face. I never had seen my sister this happy. She deserve to go out and have some fun. I hugged her and smiled. “Oh Hannah. I'm glad you had fun. I was going to have date tonight with Jesse, but he had a work to do. We go date tomorrow.” I looked at her and smiled. “Jesse? Jesse who? You didn't told me about this before. What about Nick? You still love him don't you?” she asked and looked at me. “Love? No I don't love him. I hate him. He don't wanna get married. Why should I be with a guy who doesn't wanna get married?” I questioned and sat down to couch. She sat next to me and sighed. “Oh my poor little sister. I thought it was what you wanted too. No marriage. Since when you wanted to get married?” she asked and looked at me surprised. What should I answer to her? I took deep breath and looked at her. “Well Holly change my mind. Since when I get a chance to be around her, everything started to be more clearly. I want to have a family, but I need to be married too. And I know Jesse can let me have that. Nick doesn't. So... I should give love of my life walk away and married a guy who wanna get married.” I stood up and walked away from my sister. Hannah followed me and stopped me to go. “That's stupid, dear sister. If you give some time to Nick then he realize how much he wanna be with you. And when you 2 had been together long enough... He's gonna propose.” She looked at me like she was knowing what is going on. That was hell good advice. Should I just call him and tell him that I love him. “No... You should hear what he told me. He don't want get married ever. And I don't wanna waste my time with him. I'm fine. Really. I'm happy with Jesse even I had only know him 2 days. He's sweet and kind to me.” sister crossed her hand against her chest and looked at me. “Want me to talk to him?” she asked and I looked at her. “No... you let this go. Do not come to this. This is mine and Nick's thing. I don't need your help. Good night sister.” I walked to my room and went to on my bed. I looked at to roof and start to think of Nick. Was he with Mariah to make me jealous? Well I definitely was trying to make him jealousy of Jesse. I looked at the clock and it was 9:30. Oh I wish Jesse would be here right now. I don't wanna fall asleep alone tonight. I heard cry suddenly and I get up off the bed and walked out of the room to Holly's.
 I walked to room and I saw someone to holding her. I put lights on and he was standing there. Nick was holding his daughter and he was still wearing his clothes what he was using his... date? He turn around to see me and smiled. “I couldn't go to date with her. Holly needs me. I can't leave her.” It was only thing I let him to say and I walked away back to my room. So he didn't go to date and I didn't go to date... This was weird. Should I go back in there and ask what is going on? I walked to my door and open it and then he was standing behind my room's door. “We need to talk.” he said and walked inside my room to not even ask can he come in. I closed my room's door and looked at him. “What is going on, Nick? Why you aren't date with Mariah?” I asked and he smiled at me. “Cause of Holly. I heard she was crying and then I decide to stay. She needs me.” Nick said and sat down to my chair. He looked up to my laptop and smiled. “You still have picture of us in your laptops wallpaper. Why?” he questioned and looked at me. I walked to my table and shut my laptop and looked at Nick. “Don't lie to me Nick. You didn't go cause I wasn't.” I crossed me hand to against chest and looked very pissed of at him. He stood up and looked at me. He was so tall and handsome. I would lose battle with him if we would fight each other. “You really wanna know why?” he asked and I only nod my head. 

Nick Carter Fan Fiction: Forbidden Love 36

Chapter 36

**Nick's View**

McCartney! Jesse McCartney! Damn it! I should do something to get them apart, but what? I won't let them to be together. Son of bitch! I looked down and I saw Mariah was still socking my dick. She did very good job, but my mood was gone. She tries to do anything to make me mood. “Mariah? Just stop. That doesn't help.” I said and then she comes under the covers and looks at me. “I can see that. It's like dead worm. What is going on Nick? Is it cause of her?” She pointed at to door and was talking about Mary. “No... Of course not. I'm just tired. You keep me wake up whole night. I need to sleep. My tour is in 5 days. I'm very sorry, Okay?” I looked at her and tried to small to her. She only smiled and she looked like she had an idea or something. I can only ask, “What?” and then she stood up off the bed. “Nothing. I should go so you can have some sleep.” No she was planing something. “Come on. What's up with you?” I sat to bed edge and touch her hand. “You can tell me everything.” I looked at her. “Okay. I wanna come with you to tour. I can't wait 2-3 months when you get home. I wanna be with you.” She wasn't serious or was she? I had only know her 2 days and she want to come to my tour with me? I would more rather to take Mary with me. “Oh god Mariah. You really think I'm going to take you with me? I can't have time with you. I had interviews, meeting fans, concerts...” And then she stops me to speak. “What? Meeting fans? I don't want you to meet fans Nick. I get very jealous if I see you hugging or giving kisses to fans. Please cancel every fan meeting. For me.” She only smiled and begged on her knees. Jeez... I couldn't do that to my fans. Fans are everything to me. “I can't let my fans down. It's my job, Mariah. And we had only know each other 2 days. I think you can handle those 3 months while I'm gone.” I looked at her and her face turn to anger. “No Mariah. Don't show me angry face. I don't like to see you like that. Please.” “Then cancel the fan meetings.” She stood up and took her jacket. “No. I won't do it.” I snapped at her and stand up off the bed. “Fine. I have to do then all by myself. I'm coming. Like it you or not.” she said and she was gone. Son of... She's just like No... I won't say it... yeah Mandy... Wondering how is she doing... I took deep breath and fall on bed. I know I was naked but I didn't feel to dress up or anything but then I heard some giggling from the door. I looked at the door and Nina was standing there looking at me. “Hi. What's up?” I only asked and she couldn't stop laughing. “Very funny to see Nick Carter naked, huh? Why won't you come and test how's it feel.” And I wink at her and the her laughing stopped and she shut my door close. “Shut up, Carter!” She yelled at behind the door. “Love you too, Sweety!” Oh I liked to tease her. I move under covers and started to sleep, but then there was knocking to my door. “Can't I get some sleep?” I stood up and walked to door to open it not even care am I naked. Nudity is nature thing. “What?!” I shout and Mary was behind the door carrying Holly. Mary looks at me down to up and looks at me to my eyes. “You don't have any clothes to put on? You might get sick like that.” I only smiled at her and lick my lips. “Nudity is normal thing, sweetheart. What you want? Sex?” I was so into her now. She was thinking defently sex. I can tell. Her eyes tells everything. “Well not sex. I want you to look after your daughter. I need to get ready to my big date.” I Iook at her and I was surprised. “Date? With who?” I questioned. She is about to give me Holly and I just move away. “No.. I need to sleep. That thing cries all the time.” I pointed at Holly. “Thing? This is not any thing. It's your daughter Nick. It's a baby. She needs her father.” Oh I so didn't wanted this to happened. Why I have to have that daughter? Why? I moved to my room and started to put my clothes on. “Alright. I had it. I'm taking her back to Nicky. I can't be parent. I'm too young to be.” I looked at her. “I wished I could be good parents with you if we could be together, but... you want to get married and I can't afford that for you.” I said and looked very sorry look on my face. “Well I have my plans. Jesse told me that he wanna get married some day. If I get lucky. I might be Mrs. McCartney next year.” And then she hand over the Holly to me. I took her to my hands and she started to cry in my arms. She was silent when she was in Mary's arms. “Please come with me. I can't drive when she cries like this. You hold her while I drive. Please?” I begged her and looked at her friendly. “As a friend I ask you to come.” I couldn't believe it I said that. She think for moment and she took Holly back to her hands and she stopped crying. “No. Let's not take her to Nicky. I will look after her while you are sleeping. But wake up before 9pm. Jesse pick me up that time.” And she then walked out of the my room. She want to keep her. It was my lucky day. She's going to be mother to Holly. And Holly is my daughter. We are going to be family. Maybe she have some feelings for me still, but it's unpossible to get her back without marriage. Should I get that risk and do it? I can't live without her, but I just hate to think of marriage. And now she goes date with that Jesse? I have to stop it. But how. I should call Mariah here and ask her out. And then I follow Jesse and Mary to place where they are going to eat or something. Yes that was going to be great plan. I took my cell and dial Mariah's number. “Hey babe. I want to make it up to you what I said to you today earlier. Wanna go to out to eat?” Oh she said yes and was very exciting about it. So I told her to come 8:30pm to my dad's place so we can go 9pm. This plan was prefect. I can't wait to see Mary's face when she sees me with Mariah around me. I was so going to get her back. Like it or not.

Hours past by and it was 8pm. I walked to Mary's room and I saw her to do her hair ready. I knock at her door and walked inside. “Hey. Just wanted to tell you that... I got a date today as you. BJ promised to look after Holly.” I said and smiled to her. She looked at me and was putting ear rings. “Oh that's so kinda of her. You got a date too? With that Black hair girl?” she questioned. Was she jealous. I hoped she was. “Yeah. Mariah is her name. I use to call her Black hair girl too when I didn't know her name.” I tried to be friendly and talk some real stuff. Not just hot sexy she was or how much I wanted to fuck her. “Mariah? That's nice, Nick. You look good. Is that shirt I bought for you?” She looked at me and smiled. “Yeah. Thought it would be perfect tonight. It's match to my eyes, right?” I asked and smiled to her. She only nods and start to make up herself. Oh damn she looked so hot. She was wearing this black dress what was so short that you can see her pare legs. It ended right to her knees. And she have v-crack near by her breasts so you can see those squeezed to each other. I so wanted her. Should I just kiss her and tell her how I feel and how sorry I am? She then stoop and looked at me. “Well how do I look, friend?” she spin around and stops to pose. I only smiled and winked at her. “very nice. Maybe I should take you out and have you all by myself.” I smiled to her and moved closer to her. She walked away from me when I was walking to near her. “Stop. You don't mean that. You are only joking, right?” She asked and crawled to her bed and moved to other side the bed. Oh she couldn't get away from me. I like dot tease her. I moved closer to her and she was against the wall and it was only me on her way to get away. She was trapped. She looked at me and I was just smiling. Oh she was so hot. I so want to fuck her right here and right now. “have I told you how sexy you look. Don't you think that's too much to Jesse? You are going to give him heart-attack.” Looked at her up and down. “And you wouldn't get heart-attack cause of this?” She look like that she was enjoying me to say that I think she was sexy. “Oh no. I would go t heaven and have all naked woman around me. And I wish you could be one of them.” And then I heard step from Mary's room door. “Here you are sweety. Sorry if I'm early.” it was Mariah. Yes... very early. I would might wanted to kiss Mary but instead I have to kiss Mariah. I moved away from Mary and step back away from her. Then suddenly Mariah started to kiss me deeply with her tongue. I can see Mary's face disgusting. I moved Mariah away from the kiss and smiled. “Babe... You are so early. And damn you look so sexy.” She was wearing black leather miniskirt, white ripped off t-shirt and black boots with heels. “And you too. But I hate this shirt. Come on. Let's go change it.” She grap my hand and walked me to my room. I waved to Mary quickly.

Nick Carter Fan Fiction: Forbidden Love 35

Chapter 35

**Nick's view**

“Hey Nick.” She said and I just couldn't say any word to her. “How...?” I just looked at her. She smiled at me. Oh god how I missed her smile. “Do I dreaming?” I asked in chocked. She shake her head. “No... You see delusions. But I'm really here.” she moves closer and smiles. “No... No... This is not real. Are you saying you are some kinda of ghost?” I moved away from Emilia. Why I move away from her? She laughs for bit and moves away from me to other side. “Yes. I'm your ghost and an angel. I protect you.” I looked away from Emilia and I looked back and she was gone. “well just great... I see delusions. Do I believe in ghost? I do now. I looked my cars backseat and scare a bit to see Emilia sitting there. “Jeez. Why you have to be there. Come back to front seat.” I looked at her. She only smiles at me and moves closer to me. “I want you. Have you ever had sex with Ghost?” What? I had what? This wasn't happening. Oh god don't do it man. She's not real. She's not real. She suddenly touch me from my chest and smiles. “It's me Nick. Don't be afraid. I won't hurt you.” I looked at her deep her eyes. I so missed everything about her. She is just sitting on the back seat waiting for me there. Should I do this? I finally got her back and who knows... Maybe she's real? “Emilia? Proof me that this is not dream? Proof me that you are right there.” I looked at her and then she started to move her clothes off slowly off. I forgot how beautiful she was. I stop the engine and move to back seat on her and she laughed about it. “What?” I asked and looked at her. “You silly boy. You haven't change for bit, except alcohol and hookers.” She was watching me when I fucked all those girls? “You saw me?” I looked at her and then she stop me by kissing. Oh god I missed these strong kisses. First 3 hookers and now Emilia who might be Ghost? “Oh god Emilia... I missed you so much. Why now you come back on my life?” I kissed her deeply and then I heard cell ringing. “Don't answer it. It's just your stupid girlfriend.” Emilia said and started to move my shirt off. “Yes so stupid. You have no idea.” I touched her breasts. Oh I love these breath and I started to stuck them. “Mmmm... You should get married with her. I'm your wife, remember?” Emilia questioned and enjoyed when I suck her breasts. I lift my face up and looked at Emilia. “I only want to be married with you. If you go now I won't ever go married with anyone. Just please. DO not ever go away from my life again.” I said to her and she only smiled. “Don't worry Nick. I'm right.... here.” She touched my chest gently and looked down to her hands. She was wearing rings? I looked at her to her eyes and smiled. “I love you, Emilia. I do so much. I had missed you.” I kissed deeply and remove my jeans off. She suddenly stops me to doing that. “What?” I questioned her and then she hit me to cheek hard and then suddenly I was sitting in the front seat. Whatta hell? I looked around and I didn't see no one. I sighed. It was dream. It felt so real. I closed my eyes to wish I could fall asleep. And there was my cell ringing. I open my eyes and looked who was caller. Of course. It's Mary. I answer it. “What you want?” I asked little pissed. “Did you just hang up on me?” she asked. “Like this?” and then I hung up on her. “Hopefully she won't call me anymore. I start the engine and drove off to home.

**Mary's view**

Jesse gave me ride back to Carter's house. “Wanna come to meet my friends?” I asked and he looked at the house. “Gosh... I don't know. Nick might be there.” Jesse said and looked at me. I smile to him and touch his hand. “Come on. I kick his ass if he won't behave.” He laugh and nods. “Okay. Let's go see your friends.” I let go of his hand and get out of the car. We walked to front door and we started to hear crying. “OH that's Holly. Nick's daughter.” I opened door and walked in. Bob was in the hall and was trying to make Holly quiet. “Oh thank god you are here. Just take her. Try to make her stop crying.” He gave me Holly and I couldn't even say anything and bob was already gone. “Damn. She's loud.” Jesse said and smiled to me. I walked to kitchen and tried to feed her some warm milk. Jesse followed me and looked at me. “You know about babies?” he asked. “Kinda of yeah.” I feed Holly and then there was silent. “Finally!” Bob shouted at living-room. I smiled and walked to living-room while still feeding Holly in my arms. “She was hungry. Oh bob this is Jesse.” I introduce them to each other. They shake their hands. “Hey Jesse. Taking her out tonight?” Bob asked and pointed at me. “No actually. I have some work to do. That's going to take whole night.” Jesse smiled and stand straight like good gentleman. Bob smiles to us and stands up of the chair. “Well I leave you two alone. I go take nap now cause Holly is eating now. Oh by the way, Mary. Nick is at home.” Bob said and walked to his bedroom. “Oh this is just getting better. Wait here. I'll go give Holly to Nick. You going to be ok?” I asked and smiled. “Yeah. Sure. I'll be fine.” And he give me sweet kiss. I smiled to him and walked to upstairs carrying Holly. I walked to Nick's door and I heard some voices. “Oh yes... Oh Nick...” What on earth? Who is that woman with Nick? I looked down to Holly who was just sucking her thump. “OH yes... You are so great, Mariah. Let me taste your...” Then I moved away form the Nick's bedroom door and shut Holly's ears. “Son of bitch, Carter! Your daughter is right here and I can hear you!” I yelled at to door. It didn't take like 10 or 15 seconds when rooms door opens and Nick looks out of it very red and sweat. “Oh hi. I thought my dad is looking after her.” and then there's some black hair woman peeking out too. “He hand it over to me cause of crying. I make it stop cause she was hungry.” Black hair girl looked at me and ask a question from Nick. “So this is your ex, huh? Carrying your other ex's baby? What next? Your third ex comes from the dead?” She laughed and then walked away form the door. “Oh Mariah. That's very funny.” Nick laughed about Mariah and smash Mariah's ass. “OH please, Nick. Your daughter is right here. Would you do that not around her?” I snapped at him. Nick looks at me and smiles. “Well I'm sorry. What you want? Say it very quickly. I'm busy at the moment.” I disgusted at him. “Look after your daughter. Jesse and I are not her parents.” I was giving Holly to Nick, but Nick then walks to downstairs. “I wanna know who is this Jesse?” Nick said when he walked downstairs. I followed him and walked to living-room. “Oh it's this Jesse. Did you know that he looks like my brother Aaron?” Nick pointed at Jesse and looked at me. “Just take Holly.” I give Holly, but Nick shakes his head. “I said no. Dad promised to look after her and If you excuse me... I wanna fuck my girlfriend.” He said and walked back upstairs. Girlfriend? That woman is his girlfriend. I laughed out loud for bit. “Did he said girlfriend?” I looked at Jesse and he just nod his head. “Yes he did. I think he had move on.” Jesse said and sat down to couch. I hold Holly still in my arms and start to think clearly. “So that's Nick's daughter Holly. Who's mother? You?” Jesse asked and I could only laugh about it out loud. “No... I have only know Nick 2 weeks. We have this up and down thing. We are together and again we are not. Sounds very stupid.” I said and sat to couch next to Jesse. “So... Would you like to go date with me?” Jesse asked and smile at me. I looked at him and smiled. “That would be nice. How's tonight?” I asked and he nods. “Yeah. 9Pm?” he questioned and I only nod same time as smiling. “That is date then. I pick you up 9pm.” he said and stood up. I stood up after him and smiled to him. “Alright. I should get ready. But how? It seems like I'm babysitting today.” I looked at Holly who was sleeping in my arms. How could baby could be look so beautiful. She had so small hands and so little tiny nose. And mouth was very small. And her ears... oh I was going to love this person so much, but I shouldn't. She wasn't mine. But she was Nick's daughter. What I'm going to do? I want to have a baby with someone, but with who? I turn my look at to Jesse. Oh yes... I'm going to have baby with Jesse, cause Nick is out of the picture. Jesse looks at me weird look and I only smile at him. “I would like to have someday one of these. But I don't have a boyfriend yet and I should get married.” And then Jesse kissed me deeply. Oh damn. I wish Nick wouldn't step to living-room right now. Jesse knows how to kiss. I love his kisses. I DO!

Nick Carter Fan Fiction: Forbidden Love 34

Chapter 34

**Mary's view.**

I woke up to terrible headache. I stood up and looked around. This is not my room. God damn. This headache makes me feel sick. OH about the sickness, I think I need to run bathroom. But where's a bathroom? I get off the bed and realize I was totally naked. I took nearest blanket and cover my body with it, but then I realize that under to blanket I took off was naked guy. Oh my god! Did I cheated on Nick? Oh god... I moved other side to room to see guys face better. Guy suddenly turns to around and is still sleeping. OH god. Is he... I shake my head and started to think clearly. I went to club with Angel. She walked to this cute guy. Then Jesse... I looked at a guy and there he was Jesse McCartney naked on the bed. I bite my lower lip and move to back to bed. He didn't still wake up. Hopefully he doesn't have girlfriend. I didn't see any picture of a girl. I hear him to moan and feel him moving for bit. I looked at him and saw him open his eyes. “Please tell me where's bathroom?” He smiled for me half asleep and points to door in his left side. “good morning to yourself too.” I just took blanket and run there fast. And then I throw up. I god. Why I drank? Oh yes. To make Nick jealous. So this means I have to date Jesse. Do I really have to? I heard step behind me and yawning. “I had fun last night. What's your name again?” he asked and started to brush his teeth. I stand up and saw he's still naked. “Dude... Cover yourself please. I can see your buddy down there.” I looked at him and he only smiled while brushing his teeth. “Ooh that's very nice name you got. <Dude. Cover yourself please.> Very unique.” He joke about my reaction and I could only laugh. “Fine. It's Mary. You are Jesse.” He stops brushing his teeth and smiles. “Oh yeah. I remember now. You told me as drunk that you wanna make your ex jealous and you need my help.” Did I really said that to him? Holy fuck. “Oh god. You must think I'm an idiot.” I walked out of the bathroom. He walks behind me and smiles. “Well I said “Whatta hell.” And then we end up to there.” He pointed at bed. I looked at Jesse and throw him pillow. “Please cover yourself.” I started to turn to red. “You blushing. Is it cause I'm naked? It have to be.” He only smiled and looked at me. “Yeah so please. Cover yourself.” I smiled and looked away. He walks to me and gives me a kiss to cheek. “Chill sweetheart. I won't bite. I'll go make us some breakfast.” He said and put his morning robe around him and walked out of the bedroom. I sat down on the bed and sighed. Just wondering what Nick is up to. Oh I don't wanna know. I started to find my clothes and put them on. Jesse and I have nice chit chat and talked about ourself to each other. It was nice.

**Nick's view.**

Oh man whatta headache. I looked at my clock on my nightstand it was 4pm. Good that I have day off. No work, no concerts, no fans... Just me and... I stopped my thoughts for moment and looked at my other side of the bed and there was black hair woman naked on my bed. Fuck... what is her name? Marissa? Marienne? Mary? No not Mary. Damn alcohol makes my brain bad. Damn it. Mary-Anne? Madonna? I laughed in my mind and smiled. Definitely not Madonna. I stood off the bed and put my boxers on. I looked at naked woman one more time and smiled. Last night was great. I never had that kinda of party. Bruce knows how to do parties. Thanks for him. I stood up and stretch my arms and neck. Damn I have bad pillow. Need to buy new one. I took my jeans and t-shirt from the closet and put them on. Woman still was sleeping. So this is it... I fucked some hookers and Mary is maybe still crying on my room at my parents house. I need to talk to her or something. I walked outside of bedroom and walked downstairs to living-room to find my cell. It was on the coffee table and I dialed Mary's number. It peeped once, twice, thrice and there was laughing in the other line. “Hello?” She answered very happy. What was going on? I hang up the phone and put it on the coffee table. I looked at it for moment and it started to ring. I looked at phone and it said Mary is calling. Should I answer and talk to her. She sounded so happy. Do I really wanna know what is going on? I sighed and I answer to cell. “Hey.” I only said. “Hey. You called me?” She asked and I heard something noise. “Yeah. Just wanted to know are you ok?” She started to laugh suddenly. “Please stop. It's Nick.” And there was guys voice behind. “well say hi.” he laughed. “Who is there with you?” I asked really jealous. “Just Jesse. Why?” She asked and sounded like it wasn't any my bisnes. “I... Just forgot it. Forgot all what I had said. Forgot I even called you.” I said and hung up on her again. I throw my phone to couch and and sat down on it sighed. I heard some steps behind me and I looked behind me. Black hair woman is awake. “Hey. You are up.” I said and smiled. She had clothes on and jacket too. “Well thanks for amazing night.” I stand up of the couch and walk to her. “You already leaving?” I asked. She only smiled. “Yeah. Need to go work at 10 tonight.” she said. Work? Like hooker work? Oh yeah of course. “What kinda of work?” I asked and look at her and then my cell started to ring. “Be more worried of your girlfriend, Nick. See ya later.” She said and just walked away. I run after and shouted after her. “I forgot your name!” She turns around in my summerhouse gate. “Mariah!” And she was gone. Mariah! Now I remember. Damn she was great fuck. I walk back to living-room and my cell is still ringing. I took it from the couch and answer it. “Yes?” I answer like I was pit pissed to bother me. “Hey! Do you know what day it is?” It was only Howie. “Well hey to you too. What day is it, D?” I asked and walked to kitchen. “Your tour starts tomorrow man. Have you forgot?” Shit! Damn it. “Well I didn't forgot that. I was about to go my dad's place soon. I got my all stuff there.” I ran to upstairs and started to find some stuff what I needed. “You are not home?” Howie asked and I tried to pack my stuff, eat apple and talk to Howie same time. “No I'm not. I'm at my summerhouse. I had a party last night.” I took my bathroom stuff and throw them to my bag. “You had a party? And didn't invite me and guys?” Howie asked and I just laughed. “well it was more like alcohol and sex, mate. Hookers.” I said apple on my mouth. “You had hookers in your summerhouse? Dude what about Mary?” Oh he care for her? Howie doesn't deserve to know or does he? “Well D... We kinda of broke up. She already have someone else. I'm very cool with it. And I actually had most unbelievable sex last night. I had 3 woman same time. They all was all over me.” I told Howie every details. “hey hey hey! I'm still on line! No need to tell me everything!” I started to laugh when I walked to downstairs. “Well it was best night ever.” I said and took my car keys. “When you talked to Mary last time?” Howie asked and I lock my summerhouse door. “Just 15 minutes ago. She was with someone guy name Jesse.” I said and walked to my car. “Jesse who?” I throw my stuff backseat and went to inside my car. “I didn't ask, but he somehow sounded familiar.” I started my car and put my seat belt on. “Well you need to find out who is it. You can't just leave her like that, man. You love her, do you?” Howie asked me and sounded like he eally wanted me to be with her. I didn't started to drive and looked out. “Well D... I said to her I don't wanna get married. Ever. I told her to find someone who will.” I sighed and looked down on my knees. “Just be honest D... Did I do the right thing to leave her like that?” “Well I don't know. If she wanna get married and you don't so maybe you 2 weren't meant to be together.” he only said and I took deep breath. “Thanks D. I gotta go. I need to go home now. Talk to you again, bro.” I said and tried to sound little happier. “Yeah yeah. Take care and try to not do anything stupid.” I know what he meant by that. Alcohol and sex. “Yes. Yes D. I won't. Talk to you later. Bye.” And I hung up. I hit my head to wheel 3 times and took deep breath. “Son of bitch. I shouldn't know this was going to happen.” It was 10 seconds silence and then I heard like someone was whispering my name. “Nick... Nick....” I looked behind from the mirror I have in front seat. There was someone. Was it for real? I turn around to look backseat, but she was... gone. Emilia was gone. She's still here with me. What she want? “Emilia? Is that you? Show yourself please.” and then I see someone next to me.